As a sufferer of Suicidal Tendencies, let me say, for you & a few others, it is NOT the easy way out - of anything. People have no idea, the pain that drives us, to do, what we do.
There's many reasons, everything from being abused, to simple hormonal imbalance, and it's not intended to hurt you, or our loved ones, it's intended to end the suffering of ourselves from something that there, most often is no remedy, or relief.
Thankfully, there is hope, and comfort in knowing, that in God's own way, he can heal all the broken, jagged edges within us, as he does,when he smooths over & polishes a broken piece of Beach Glass, and turns it into one of God's Gems. So if you have survived suicidal attempts to yourself, you can still come to realize, that you too, are 1 of God's Gems.
Be Blessed, and a blessing to others my friends. Always know, something like this, to discuss it, and show you care, can be compared to the work of Angels. We all need Angels like you, in our lives ! (h)