ZEN's blog: "YOUR EVER SO INVITING"

a guy loved a girl, they were both so happy, until one faithfull night whenever thing turned to shit, the girl asked the guy what did your lover before look like, the guy showed her a picture, she flipped out said you still love her, the guy replied thats untrue cause the only person I love is you, as he said to the girl she left him without listening, then that night the guy looked in himself and yelled at his heart she was the one i wanted the most and now hes alone feeling the feelings he dreaded and now she wont even speak not even a mum so he wrote not here, leave me alone, hes gunna go now cause she left him alone in forever days of sadness!!!

today is the day I say I love you and ask you to take my hand and start over with me cause I love you deeply...I would trade in the stars for your love, your touch, your heart as I gaurd your heart for the negative I only hope I can save you from the pain cause I never want to lose you...cause my love for you grows stronger by the min I hope you see that I would do anything for you, someday you'll see I care so much about you I would die for you my luv......to be cont!? hehehe i know its evil to do that but I dont have anymore material to put in it and I will cont. it when i dig deep some more into my heart to finish it and when its done it will be amazing ^_^ until then

In light I feel the darkness, it pulls me closer to the scare in my heart, I try to claw myself away buts not use im there...as memories and nightmares come from my scare I locked away is now unlocked as the one thing fear comes forward as a movie of my past...I see my past unfold before my eyes, I see my mom treating me as the worthless slave and treating my lil sister as the princess...now one sees it but I do the hatered my mother has for me, I look into her eyes and know she never wanted me, im a burden to her...my father once a hero in my eyes is now just a shell as my mom breaks the family apart and my father falls apart...I was so alive, now im so pathetic I couldnt help and now Im the slave in a house of hell and my life is growing dimmer...I pull aways from the memories as I feel like life is over and the demons saying they can never go away...I grab my heart and sqeeze tightly, as scare bleeds out of my heart as I scream in pain tears from eyes pour onto my heart...as the nightmares and demons disappear, I yell to myself Life maybe be up and down but its not worthless like you think...as I light comes back to my eyes, I feel alive once again and now I understand that I mustin dwell in the past but look to light of the future...I know now that if i want anything done right I must do it myself with no regrets, I know someday the scare may appear again but until it does I'll be ready for Nightmares and Demons.....

Most of you know by reading my profile alot about me but not many of you see that I am very deep and not just goofy most of the time. Alot of poeple on here say they hate life and that makes me wanna scream cause life is worth living all you have to do is change to that you can be happy while being bored cause you still know its gunna be a good day...Yes I do get down at times myself but I mean when your down must you hate life also...theres something for everyone to think about, to be continued.....................................

okay so there are 30 seconds to mars tickets for the 16th of feb. and there are very few tickets cause its at a ballroom so please wish me the best of luck as I try and get my order in!!! ^_^ thanks my peeps, I will be sure to leave some comments for everyone as well too ^_^

"But he doesn't want to read the message here" *the anwser to this is on my page see if u can find it * ok from the first line can anyone guess what song its off of and who plays it??? *hint its my Favorite Song and Band* anyways if ur reading this then im bored and I have nothing better to do tonight!!! anyways if anyone wants to talk then my yahoo messenger is lebanon_OR_punk2005 and my msn messenger is tntpunk0@hotmail.com anyways I will be on there so if u wanna chat go ahead I would love to talk to anyone and O if you figure out my question then tell me in a message and your right you will get lotz of cherry lovin from me comments, rating, and more... LOL i just wanted some fun with my blogs ^_^ so have fun this weekend and I will talk to anyone who wants to chat!!!! Peace Out my Cherry Friends!!!! ~TOMMY~

I lie awake in bed at night And think about your life Do you want to be different? Try to let go of the truth The battles of your youth Cos this is just a game It’s a beautiful lie It’s a perfect denial Such a beautiful lie to believe in So beautiful, beautiful It’s time to forgive the past To wash away what happened last Hide behind an empty face Don’t ask us much again Cos this is just a game It’s a beautiful lie It’s a perfect denial Such a beautiful lie to believe in So beautiful, beautiful Ohhhhh! Everyone don’t look at me I’m running around in circles Acquired desperation Building high I’ve got to remember this is just a game So beautiful, beautiful (Lie! Lie!) So beautiful, beautiful (Lie! Lie!) It’s a beautiful lie It’s a perfect denial Such a beautiful lie to believe in So beautiful, beautiful

Anyways you can send me a Voice comment by clicking underneath my voice messages and it will give ya a phone number and if you get one on ur page I will return the favor thanks cherrys have a wonderfull nightz!!!!

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Hey everyone, I believe life is a double sided coin and when things get down and seems like theres no way out of a downer, I reinvent an exit!! LOL sounds crony like the song by underoath but its true when you cant get out of depression reverse everything in ur mind and reinvent a way into a postive side of life :)!!! Sometime I dont follow my own advice but I try my hardest we are all only human!!! I have found out alot of things in 2006 and looking into the beginning of 2007 with new additude on life and ways to get from sad and depressed back to happyness and postivity!!!! Life may have a plan for you but its your faith so take charge and "CARPE DEIM"!!!! LATERZ ALL From, ~69EYESTOMMY~ AKA TOMMY(the Gracefull) THAYER