ZEN's blog: "YOUR EVER SO INVITING"

heres the scope peeps...................... ~I like this girl, she likes me back..She still Loves her ex and I know this and I understand.She needs to know that I feel about her and that is I only want the best for her no matter who shes with I just want to see her happy..Even if I never get a chance, I will always be by her side forever cause thats how i am, all I care is that her feelings, I am more than happy to push my feelings aside for her to see her happy~ Anyways I wrote all my feelings because I want to remind her what kind of guy I am, and I want to show other guys that its not giving up to push ur feelings aside for the girl u care about just to see her happy!!! Everyone forgets what being true is (no offense my friends just writing in general) anyways I hope everyone had a fantastic tuesday night and Hope u have a great wendseday!!!! love, ~Tommy ~ ^_^

So I thought I would share my thoughts with all my friends!!! I believe life is what u make of it...your fate is your own and no one elses, your destiny will always be unclear, True Love exist just hardly no one fights for it and/or One person fights for it but the other lets go and gives up, everyone has incredible inner strength that can never break if u know how to use it right, Good most of the time loses to evil cause it seems no matter how hard us the good poeple try to beat evil we just end up losing more poeple than we save and "Im not talking about religion".....anyways I just urge everyone to do something non-selfish everyday so that hopefully others will catch on like Paying it forward!!! Life isnt about taking what u want whenever...Life is about giving and taking, Life is about Love and Pain....anyways I hope my message is clear to those who feel like giving up at times...... .....NEVER GIVE UP, IF U LOVE SOMEONE DEEPLY NEVER GIVE UP THE FIGHT, TRUE LOVE MAY GIVE U PAIN AT TIMES BUT WHEN U FIND THAT SPECIAL SOMEONE TRUE LOVE WILL PAY OUT FOR U!!!! THERE WILL ALWAYS BE UPS AND DOWNS, JUST HAVE TO SAY TO HELL WITH THE DOWNS STUFF HAPPENS!!! EMBRACE LIFE TO FEAR AND HIDE FROM IT!!!

Follow your bliss, it reads on my chest. I know I got it tattooed for a reason. Why can't I just hold it true? 'Cause I'm still crashing all the funerals Of these people that I never knew. Yeah! I'm stuck in a coma, stuck in a never-ending sleep. And some day I will wake up and realize I made up everything. I shut the door and turn all the lights out. And listen to all the songs that the night shouts. They go something just like this... So go fill up a glass with tonic rocks and gin and drink yourself to happiness. I'm stuck in a coma, stuck in a never-ending sleep. And some day I will wake up and realize I made up everything. We can all hang ourselves from gold chandeliers. And drink goodbye to all, all the pain and fears. Loose lips have sunk this ship, to a shallow grave. Washed up upon the rocks. I won't be saved. I won't be saved. I'm stuck in a coma, stuck in a never-ending sleep. And some day I will wake up and realize I gave up everything. (I won't...) So follow your bliss, it reads on my chest. (...be saved.) (I won't...) I know I got it tattooed for a reason. (...be saved.) (I won't...) I shut the door and, turn all the lights out. (...be saved.) (I won't...) And listen to all the songs that the night shouts. (...be saved.)

If you, if you could return, don't let it burn, don't let it fade. I'm sure I'm not being rude, but it's just your attitude, It's tearing me apart, It's ruining everything. I swore, I swore I would be true, and honey, so did you. So why were you holding her hand? Is that the way we stand? Were you lying all the time? Was it just a game to you? But I'm in so deep. You know I'm such a fool for you. You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha. Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to, Do you have to let it linger? Oh, I thought the world of you. I thought nothing could go wrong, But I was wrong. I was wrong. If you, if you could get by, trying not to lie, Things wouldn't be so confused and I wouldn't feel so used, But you always really knew, I just wanna be with you. But I'm in so deep. You know I'm such a fool for you. You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha. Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to, Do you have to let it linger? And I'm in so deep. You know I'm such a fool for you. You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha. Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to, Do you have to let it linger? You know I'm such a fool for you. You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha. Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to, Do you have to let it linger? I LOVE THIS SONG AND I HOPE ALL MY FRIENDS DO TOO CAUSE ITS A GREAT LOVE SONG ^_^

If you read this then im sorry!!! I just need to blow off some steam!!! lol god this weekend brings back shit I hate lol all I do is laugh when I always feel like im worthless like how many of the poeple hurt me in my past....tonight has been filled with Threats. Decieving,Disappointments,Broken Promises and many others of the sort....Right now I dont know if I can stay positive and let the darkness have me again like in the past and plus I have a sickness and in alot of pain and these pills im taking are making me feel sicker and depressed and plus im still coughing up blood!!!!! So Im guess Im writing so I can blow of some steam since none of my friends r on...So if anyone reads this im sorry dont worry about me, I'll be better in the morning!!!!!

Hey my CT friends, Im asking for help with ideas about pics I should do. I have friends and my sister coming over in 3 days and we r going camera picture crazy frenzy LOL!!! so I had a few ideas but I value my friends Ideas and also friends have better ideas for pics of you than your ideas for urself!!! so im please begging for ur help cause im tired of my lame old pics i have up and i need ones that no one will forget!!! so if u have any ideas submit them to me and I will greatly return the favor!!! If you submit any ideas I thank you and most definitly appericate it!!!! Bye CT friends from, ~Salvation~ aka *Tommy*

My destiny undecided, My faith between the line, my fate uncovered, my prophecy undiscovered....will my soul fall to darkness or rise above to goodness...I look toward myself to see the shadow of the real me, I look forward and see, one things certain to me....Salvation, Redemption is the key for this I see darkness and goodness is a part of me but nether will control me, nor decide my fate...as I am a force with only one things desire, to let my prophecy come true and then we shall see what my true destiny is to me, my fate will become whats left of me, then all will see the true side of me.

I have been single for two years now and I cant seem to find a new gf...LOL i have alot of friends that r girls more than guy friends anyways how is it shortly after my ex fiancee break up with me within a day or two she found a new guy to be with and shortly after that they get married?? anyways I guess Im lookin for help lol so if any of u women have any tips tell me cause im all ears!!!! well talk to you everyone laterz!! take care peeps!!

"I'm stuck in a coma, stuck in a never-ending sleep. And some day I will wake up and realize I gave up everything." I hear the song in my head a nights, asleep I feel reality sink in. I awake to be dreaming, dreaming away life never knowing things in life I had, I had gave up for nothing but selfishness. Questions with no anwsers linger in my head, finding that I know the anwsers to questions I dont know. I lay my head to rest once again, this time I dont think I'll ever awake between reality and finction I feel as if im always dreaming, so will I ever wake from this coma Im in... sorry peepz, right now im tired and I decided to make a new poem but I think it sucks!!! tell me honestly what u poeple think!!!!

I love a woman who is scared...shes scared of distance...she scared the difference, she doesnt know love has no bonderies...my love for her burns brighter eachday, it can never and will never be put out cause of the fact shes so special to me!!!! I dont when but someday, somehow her and i will met....and thuse is the day i'll be waiting for even if take eternity!!!!