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you know what i am not going to leave cause of ignorent ppl and they know who they are. i am not going to give thm the satafaction of that. sooo you guys are stuck with me. lol love to all.

good bye

i want to say good bye to all my real friends here on ct. I love you guys always muah. laters.

at least someone does

At least someone does 1. ? : At least 1 pearson in this world love you so much they would die for you. 2. ? : At least 15 people in this world love you in some way. 3. ? : The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you. 4. ? : A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you. 5. ? : Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep. 6. ? : You mean the world to someone. 7. ? : If not for you, someone may not be living. 8. ? : You are special and unique. 9. ? : Someone that you don't even know exists loves you. 10. ? : When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it. 11. ? : When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look: you most likely turned your back on the world. 12. ? : When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you believe in yourself, probably, sooner then later you'll get it. 13. ? : Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks. 14. ? : Always tell someone how you feel about them; you will feel much better when they know. 15. ? : Youll Never Forget Your first Kiss 16. ? : Youll never forget the feelings you had for your first crush, even if u laugh about it now.

wicca

Wicca is not a cult. A cult presupposes blind faith in a central figure whose every word is regarded as ultimate truth, and the utter conviction that no other way or philosophy will lead to this truth. You would be very hard pressed to find a Wiccan anywhere who would blindly follow anyone else. Wiccans are historically very independent people who seek truth from within through rituals, meditation, magic, study and communion with nature. Wiccans respect the right of everyone to worship in their own way. We do not feel that Wicca is the only way -- only that it is our way. Wicca is not synonymous with Satan worship. The very concept of a supreme evil spirit is alien to Wicca. In fact, most Wiccans do not even believe in Satan. The devil is a Judeo-Christian construct and as such, it has nothing to do with Wicca. The notion that witches worship Satan was propounded by the Roman Catholic Church as it made its way across Europe, in an effort to suppress the native earth-based religions prevalent at the time. They succeeded to the extent that they drove the practitioners of these religions underground where much of their knowledge and traditions were lost. Through the work of the Golden Dawn, as well as anthropological and archeological research, many of these traditions have been rediscovered and incorporated into Neo-Paganism, an umbrella term for most modern earth-based and shamanistic religions. Wicca is a positive journey to enlightment through Goddess worship and the mystical art of magick. Unlike many other religions, Wicca does not claim to be the one and only "religion" for everybody, nor does it campain against other beliefs. Wiccans believe that you can be of any "religion" and still be Wiccan and follow the Goddess and God. Wicca is not anti-Christian, Wiccans do not believe in an advenging God, sin or the devil. Wicca encourages free thought, creativity, individuality, personal, spiritual and psychic growth. It is a celebration of the cycles and seasons of the earth and life and believe in living in harmony with all living things. The Rule of Threes - This lesson well, thou must learn, Thee only gets what thou doust earn! Ever mind the Rule of Threes, Three times what thou givest, returns to thee! The Law - We are of the old ways, among those who walk with the Goddess & God and receive their love. Keep the Sabbats and the Esbats to the best of your ability. To do otherwise, is to lessen your connection with the Goddess and God. The Rede is the all important part of the life and is not to be broken. Harm non, this applies to all creatures of great and small. Misery is self-created, so is joy, so distain from misery and unhappiness. Do as ye will but harm none. Teach only what you know, to the best of your ability, to those students that you choose, but teach not to those who would use your instruction for destruction or control. Also teach not to boost your pride, forever remember: She who teaches out of love shall be enfolded in the arms of the Goddess and God. Ever remember, if you would be of our way, keep the law close to your heart, for it is the nature of the Wicca to keep the law. Wiccan ABC's Accept others as they are, we are all individuals. Belief in yourself is a necessity. Concentration is important in any endeavor, both magickal and in life. Do what you will, so long as it harms none. Empathy is an important life skill...learn it, practice it. Find strength in yourself, your friends, your world and your actions. Goddess/God's are multifaceted - The Lord and Lady take many names and faces. Help others every change you get. Intelligence is something that cannot be judged on the surface. Judge not - what you send out comes back to you! Karma loves to slap you in the face, watch out for it. Learning is something that should never stop happening!!! Magick is a wonderful gift, but it is not everything! Nature is precious, appreciate it and protect it. Over the course of time, your soul learns many lessons. Make this life count!!! Pray Quietness both physically and mentally restores the soul, meditate often. Remember to take time for yourself as well as others. Spells can help you, but you must also help yourself. Tools can only do so much, they are not the foundation of all. You are the most important tool to use!!! Unless you enjoy worrying, keep a postive attitude. Visualise the success of your goals before you set out to achieve them. Wisdom can often be found in the least unexpected places. Xenophia (a hatred of those different from you) is a path to misery. You are a beautiful person who is capable of anything!!! Zapping away all of your troubles is not going to happen. ====================================================== THE ORIGINS OF WICCA as from the book Practical Wicca by Christine Seville Wicca can be traced back to the belief systems of the Stone Age peoples of Europe. It is more than one faith from one country. It has sometimes been described as the 'original belief system' because it shares numerous similarities with many shamanistic or earth based religions from all corners of the world. The mix of cultures and faiths that form the basis of the Wiccan faith brought about great changes in Europe and not least the birth of the agricultural economy. Stone circles were the churches and temples of the Wiccan faith and can still be found throughout Europe. Pagan/Wiccan ceremonies marked important times in the farming year and were believed to improve the weather in the following year. Holding magical and religious ceremonies was thought to improve harvests and to encourage good weather to prevail in the seasons of the coming year. Some of these ceremonies still survive today and form the basis of many of the festivals of the Wiccan (Witches) calander. The mid-winter festival of Christmas (Saturnalia) of many much older Pagan/Wiccan festivals that has been adopted by the Christian faith. The use of herbs as medicine is another skill that grew out of this mix of cultures and it is now starting to grow in popularity as an alternative to modern

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help

my bestfrends grandbaby just got rushed to the hosptal cause he stoped breathing while he was asleep they are not sure what is going on yet he is none responsive to any stemalation they are talking about sending him to litte rock to the best childrens hosp in the state. but we need a melacal and the really sad thing is he is only 2 weeks old. i want all my friends and family to be praying for him we need a majer merical. so if anyone can help we would really ty from our hearts!!!!!!!!!

feelings

At first I saw him as a man who desperately needed me, the lover of my dreams. I saw myself as the healer, the rescuer sent to save him from himself. I was eager and determined to cure the ills of a narssasistic man unable to love anyone but himself. I, and only I would be capable of loving this man who hated all women. He was a master at the game of power and manipulation. His way of living was the only way in his mind. If I wanted to play, it had to be in his court and by his rules; anything else was inferior. By the time I realized this was a game I didnt want to play, I knew too much about the game to be allowed to get out of it. At this point I was considered a liability and would die before I was allowed to leave. Lies and contradictions began to surface but he cleverly, guiltlessly explained them away until I no longer knew what was truth and what was a lie. Perhaps I really was as insecure as he assured me. I was that insecure although the tiny voice of reason that I kept in reserve kicked and screamed everytime I conceeded. I was more stunned by the mental and verbal assaults than the physical ones. Those take longer to heal, if they ever do. He accused me of being selfish and he would threaten to withhold not only love making but simple affections such as holding hands or hugging in order to "cure" me. Like I said, this was a master at manipulation. He knew how to hurt me. To gain him back I would close my eyes to the abuse and try even harder to be everything he wanted me to be. When the craziness of the realtionship seriously shook the foundation of my sanity, I followed my survival instincts and left. I convinced him I was going to visit my sister and would come back to him. We both knew that was a lie, but he let me go anyway. One of his brief moments of lucidity and contact with the emotions of the human race. And in this moment, he let me go. Even in light of the abuse, leaving him was the hardest thing I had ever done. I had become addicted to him and thought I had fallen in love with him. But how can you love something that doesn't have the ability to return that emotion? He contacted me after a week or two with promises of a new beginning and no more drinking or drugs. He convinced me I was indeed the only woman he ever loved and I had the power to make him see the error of his ways and change him. (His words, not mine) Of course nothing ever changed. The root of this co-dependant behavior comes from a history of child abuse. I have always sought the approval of others to try to fill the void created by this and other things in my life. I dont recall seeking anyone in moments of fear or needed comfort. If I did, Im sure it was before I understood or recognized that something terrible was going on. Upon the discovery of this was when I truly started to feel alone. Any time I got scared or upset, I withdrew from everyone into my own world because, as lonley as it is, its safe in here. I know everyone here can be trusted and no one will judge me. I am one of those people who truly has a low self-esteem. This man I speak of boosted my ego. What I mean is, getting someone like him; the meanest and most incapable of giving or receiving love, to love me or allow me to see whats behind the scene so to speak, was my power trip. I have managed to accomplish something very few, if anyone has. I have seen a side of him that no one else lives to tell about. These things come with a very high price. My freedom, which ultimately my daughters payed for. I really doubt one can be "healed" of all this. My opinion of healing is to be rid of something to the point that it no longer causes you harm or affects you in any way. These are the very things that make me who I am and are engraved in my soul. They are the blueprint of "me" and will always have an effect on me. I do, however, believe one can learn how to live with it, learn not to let it be the deciding factor in the paths we choose or the catalyst behind the decisions we make. There may be someone out there that would consider this revelation a form of healing. Trust me, this is just a brief moment of lucidity...it too shall pass. You may be asking yourself, if there is no healing, then whats the point of the revelation? Answer: to get me through the dark hours that consume the majority of my days.

confustion

Do you feel the change? Have you noticed the difference? There is something going on that I can not identify. I try to see clearly what is causing this metamorphosis, but I see nothing but the effects. I try to stop it- but I can't seem to find the brakes. I feel as if I should take all my atoms and molecules and pack them in a repeating pattern, extending in all three spatial dimensions. Solidification, then, would complete my transformation. Could this be the route I should take? Would that make you happier? 240 hours? Wednesday will mean 1488!!!!! And yet I still feel sometimes as if I should be shorter, and darker, and ink. What's happening? Why can't I be enough?

everyday life

well i am doing good today. posted some pics of me and my two bfs here in my life lol. well everything here is going good and as far as i am concerned BORING but boring is better than a bunch of trama drama lol. i also got a job yesterday start monday and i am excited about that. the baby is doing good she is growning like a weed and is so smart. i am realy proud of her. well enough boring stuff from me. laters

boys only

IF YOU WANT BOYS TO ANSWER THIS THEN POST "BOYS ONLY" IF YOU WANT GIRLS TO ANSWER THIS THEN POST "GIRLS ONLY" AND BE COMPLETELY HONEST! WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF? 1. I MADE A MOVE ON YOU: 2. I KISSED YOU: 3. I LIVED NEXT DOOR 2 YOU: 4. I STARTED TO LIKE YOU: 5. I SAID I WANTED TO HAVE SEX WITH YOU: 6. I WAS HOSPITALIZED: 7. I RAN AWAY FROM HOME: 8. I GOT INTO A FIGHT : 9. I ASKED YOU TO LEAVE: 10. I ASKED YOU OUT: WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY? 12. PERSONALITY: 13. EYES: 14. HAIR: 15. BODY: WOULD YOU? 16. BE MY FRIEND? 17. KEEP A SECRET IF I TOLD YOU ONE? 18. KISS ME? 19. GO OUT IN A DATE WITH ME? 20. KEEP IN TOUCH? 21. TRY AND SOLVE MY PROBLEMS? 22. LOVE ME? 23. DATE ME? 24. HAVE SEX WITH ME? HAVE YOU EVER? 25. LIED TO MAKE ME FEEL BETTER? 26. WANTED TO KISS ME? 27. WANTED TO KILL ME? 28. KEPT SOMTHING IMPORTANT FROM ME? 29. WANTED TO CUDDLE WITH ME? AND MORE! 31. WHO ARE YOU? 32. ARE WE FRIENDS? 33. WHEN AND HOW DID WE MEET? 34. DESCRIBE ME IN ONE WORD: 35. WHAT WAS YOUR FIRST IMPRESSION? 36. WHAT REMINDS YOU OF ME? 37. IF YOU COULD GIVE ME ANYTHING WHAT WOULD IT BE? 38. HOW WELL DO YOU KNOW ME? 39. WHEN'S THE LAST TIME YOU SAW ME? 40. EVER WANTED TO TELL ME SOMTHING BUT C OULDN'T? 41. ARE YOU GONNA POST THIS SO YOU CAN SEE WHAT I SAY ABOUT YOU? WHEN YOU ARE DONE, SEND IT TO MY INBOX. DON'T BE SHY
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