mistdragon1984's blog: "writtings"

I really don't know what happened but im single again... one min were talking about getting married next she comes home and says i have to leave because shes gettin back with her baby daddy and moving to georgia. she says she still loves me and misses me but she has to go back to him even though he abuses her both mentally and physically. then she tells me once she moves there she has to cut off all contact with me... is that where i screwed up? do women want to be controled? i could never bring myself to tell the woman i love who she can and cant talk to... maybe just an idiot but i believe a relationship is sopposed to be to equals who love each other not one domminating the other. like i said maybe im an idiot. i dunno you tell me...

I’m standing here on my own But I am never all alone Because I have you near to me I am not alone… So when I hear your voice I know the time has come For me to shed these chains of hurt And hold you close at last. For you are all I need You’re my soul my everything I am not alone… No, I am not alone. I’m standing here on my own But I am never all alone Because I have you near to me I am not alone… Running through this void of darkness I find myself in your arms And the light returns Then I know the end is near To my pains and sorrow So keep me close don’t let me go I am not alone… I’m standing here on my own But I am never all alone Because I have you near to me I am not alone… I’m standing here on my own But I am never all alone Because I have you near to me I am not alone… I am not alone... Tonight.

Everything to me Every time i see you I think of what.... you did to me... lost my heart, lost my soul never going to know what could have been took my life and turned away never looking back no... not once... lost not found torn to the ground take what you would of me don’t look back... cause I’m... gone... lost you are what you are I wont change you just remember when I’m gone... what could have been... lost not found torn to the ground take what you would of me don’t look back... cause I’m... gone... lost just leave... me be... don’t touch me I wont forgive I wont forget forever betrayed never again never... again...

My Love Long ago I closed my heart. Others would knock and the door just got thicker. My heart, a vault of pain and anger, Never allowing anyone within its steely walls My soul, a pit Getting deeper and darker Occasionally a light would break the darkness Only to be shut out by my ever pressing need to wallow in my own despair Deeper, deeper I go Slowly losing myself In thoughts of revenge, hate, and self pity Then from nowhere A light slowly appeared No matter how I tried I couldn’t turn away The closer it got The further I shied away Closer Near blinding It came Until no longer could I deny Your beauty first struck me A grip on my soul that couldn’t be broken Then your voice, The sound of angels singing in my sleep Your touch, A tender relief from the searing pain That has enveloped my very being Making me a better person for just being in your presence These words I put together Can not begin to explain the emotions I feel just at the thought of you The thought of your fingers entwined with mine Your silky hair cascading over my arm As I hold you in my embrace My heart burning with the desire To feel yours beating next to mine Forever yours No other could begin to be what you have become To me My only hope in life is That I may one day deserve The love you have shown to me….

"Burnt asunder in an ever increasing inferno of emotions fed by the mere mention of your name, to hear your voice would be as a tribunal of angels singing down from the heavens lifting my piteous self above this pain and sorrow. Your touch, a gentle caress reaching into my very soul and lifting me out of the deep abyss called society. If only I could deserve one such as you, one moment, second even, in your presence I would count my life complete."