luvinjulz's blog: "writings from when i was a kid!"

Separation I woke up this morning To find an empty bed You chose not to come home You found another place to lay your head I vowed to love you In sickness and in health for better or worse and for that promise I now live in hell You love another More than you could ever love me Now we live a lie Pretending that we're happy My soul now suffers From a choice made is haste Any memory of love is gone as hate takes its place You call me from work To say your sorry And some how I don't believe you, when you say you love me. Then you say good bye. You hang up the phone, smug in your deception Little do you know I will be gone by the time you get home. This was written 2-7-96

this is the last poem I ever wrote, lol... I walked with the lightning Fell with the rain ran from the joy stayed for the pain watched the storm come ran into its heart Prayed it wouldn't end that the clouds would never part. I took comfort in the shadows That the clouds threw over me, I hid in the darkness within me. I prayed it would be easier To wake up the next day I'd smile and pretend I could hold the storm inside me at bay. Thunder roars inside my head My heart pounds with the fear I wallowed in the knowledge That another storm would soon be here The winds pick up again The air chills so cold And once again the weather, chooses to match my soul. ...In it, I relax. I'll take comfort in this storm It fixates me so easily again, its turbulence holds true, its fury true to form. Even on a sunny day, I watch the clouds insanely. Only because I know, soon it will be raining. this was written 2-27-96