i know that i am strong
dont you try to tell me different
ive been through hell
but im still standing.
these eyes have cried more tears
than any eyes should ever cry.
this heart has felt more pain
than any heart should ever feel.
but im still here.
what does not kill me, makes me stronger.
many nights ive lied awake
wondering what would have happened
if i had not made my mistakes.
But then i remember
that while i cannot change the past
i have control over what happens now.
if it wasnt for my past
i would not be strong.
sometimes i have weak moments.
sometimes i live in hell.
sometimes i want to scream
sometimes i break down and cry
while all of these things
may be weaknesses,
gather them together
throw them at me, put them in me
and they give me strength.
this is me, who i am.
i know that i am strong.
i know that i will live on.
pain i have defeated.
tears have run dry.
i want to be happy....
its all I ever wanted.
i deserve it, ive earned it.
i am strong, and i will move on
if my pillow could talk
it would say so many things
about how i wish i could get away
and wish i had wings
it would speak
of all my tears
all my stories
and deepest darkest fears
it would tell
of all those nights
i just laid and cried
and about my dreadful sight
i look so happy
careless and free
but deep down in side
is the real me
there is only one thing
that knows how i feel
thats my pillow
it knows the deal
as each night
i pray cry and talk to it
about how i wish
i could quit
quit my life
or just run away
but i always stay
to face another day
so i dedicate this poem
to my closest friend
my pillow
always with me till the end
The twins, Shane and Austin,
Were two of a kind.
They'd take two pairs of shoes,
Whomever's they could find.
They would split both pair,
Each with a left and a right.
Then they would grab two purses.
What a cute little sight.
To top it all off,
They'd take a hat from your head,
Find one in the closet,
Or grab one off my bed.
They would wear it so proudly,
And prance around this place,
Looking so silly
With a big smile on each face.
But now that's over.
We lost our precious Shane.
Our hearts that were filled with joy,
Are now filled with pain.
We feel so much sorrow,
That Austin lost his twin brother.
They were never alone,
They always had each other.
Austin looks different now,
Since he lost his brother Shane.
When you look at his feet,
His shoes are the same.
It wouldn't do any good,
To throw a big fit.
We know what God wants,
God is going to get.
We gave him a good home,
But now he is in a better place.
I know we can't see him,
But I know he has a smile on his face.
I don't know why this happened,
We are sure paying our dues.
The only good thing I can say now,
I can find both of my shoes
have you ever wondered
whats really real in life
if youre really living it all
if its worth the sacrifice
have you ever wondered
if things are exactly how they seem
if theyre nothing more than a mirage
if theyre nothing more than a dream
have you ever wondered
if who you love is real
if theyre not just pretending
and you feel things you shouldnt feel
have you ever wondered
how youre going to die
have you made out a list
who needs to be told goodbye?
have you ever wondered
where youre going to go
will it be heaven or will it be hell
dont you think you need to know?
I know Im just me.An untitled girl .Someone just trying to make it.In this sad, confused world .Im not trying to prove anything .To myself or anyone else.Im just merely existing .In this place of living hells .And no,I dont live .Just for the hell of it .I live because I want to .Otherwise, Id be done with this shit .Now dont get the wrong impression .Im normally happy .But now Im starting to wonder.Would people miss me if I was gone? .Have I made an imprint on people at all? .Am I living my life for a reason? .Or am I exactly like the fall? .Just a dying season?.Come on, I know Im not the only one .Who wonders this sort of stuff .Or am I just a lonely girl .Thinkin of things that are tough.After all, Im just untitled