Scoob's blog: "Wrapped In Grey"

Every night
I wrote another line
With a bloody broken bottle...

And every day
I wish it away
Why don't I just pull the pin
On that grenade
I coddle.

I wanted to believe ...

Bodies swinging from trees
Struggling to stand
With my head in my hands
A stoic last stand
Of a dying man

I wanted to believe
As I watched my world
Crumble in my hands....

I wanted to believe
As I raised my glass
To my last stand.

And I wanted to believe
I would win
The war in my head
That no one understands ...

 
That I did not understand

Every night
The questions poured out,
Of my wounded eyes,
Damn dark things.

Every day
I used to pray.
Listen to the black raven sing
I wanted to believe
As I was falling to my knees
Struggling to stand
With my life in my hands ...

 
The sad last stand
Of a broken man.

I wanted to believe
As I watched my world
Crumble in my hands.
I wanted to believe
As I raised my glass
To my last stand
And I wanted to believe
I would win
The war in my head
That no one understands


I wanted to believe
As I watch my world
Crumble in my hands
I wanted to believe
As you raised my glass
To my last stand
And I wanted to believe
I would win
The war in my head
That no one understands


And the questions pour out,
And the questions pour out,
I did not understand.
I did not understand.
I did not understand.
I did not understand
The sound of me falling.

I did not understand
As the trembling heart of a man
Did not understand
The sound of a trembling heart

Scoob

They say I maybe crazy
I only say I've had my fill
They say I'll throw it all away
I probably will

They'll only give you what you're taking
But lately I've been unfulfilled
They say I'll probably blow it off someday

I probably will

The way they talk about each other
The way they talk about themselves
Well they could talk, talk, talk forever
And they probably will

You know they probably will

Now I'm noy really bitter
You know Im just a little chilled
They say that things can just get better
And they probably will

And they will only make us stronger
If they should try to keep us still
And we could rise and take it all
Someday We probably will

The way they talk about each other
The way you talk about yourselves
Well you can talk, talk, talk forever
And you probably will
You know you probably will

Whatever you believe nobody cares
Whatever it is you think you know
don't give a God dam
Reality is bullshit
Reflection is a concept
Based on your own fucked up idea

Don't call it part of your faith
Another way you justify hate

Voices shouting under water
Drown you out, steal your air
Blinded by their own illusion
Through a crooked looking glass

Army of theives
Blood on their hands
 
Lightning, fire and brimstone
They'll say whatever they can
Conspiracy theories, Arrogant trash
They prowl alone and travel in packs

Vocies shouting in the water
Drag you down, steal your air
Dissolut, Diabolic
Snake oil salesmen everywhere 
People of the lie

Whatever you believe
Nobody cares
Idol worship, made of fantasy
don't push your deity on me

Reality is bullshit
Reflection is a concept
Based on your own fucked up idea
People of the lie

At the doors of Babylon, you are my Zion
Pacing tiger, a keepers cage
Invisible light, shoots, from your eyes, a sign I can see from my high rise
Another castle crumbles, another monkey falls, just open up your joy and let the sailors climb the walls
I thought I saw you laughing ten feet in the air
It doesnt matter if they touch you where because you can give me

An Invisible Light
An Invisible Light

I want An Invisible Light
An Invisible Light
An Invisible Light
To Keep Me Alive
Let me call the tension, I can feel it with the fingers in my mind...

A opiate utopia gets hotter by the hour
I found you a flower in a field
From my invention, among the tired, among the poor, among the broken
The hollow masses
It's your time
You answer to a new name that changes all the time
I'll call you anything you want, if I can say it's mine
The stool is never-ending, our footprints have been erased
But here you are, I kiss your feelings, see your mouth or is it really

An Invisible Light
An Invisible Light

I want An Invisible Light
An Invisible Light, woah
An Invisible Light
To Keep Me Alive

Something really gets dimension, can't you feel it bang your sense of time?

Babylon, where bricks of water, diamonds, power... sailors lust and swagger, blazing in the moon's beam
Whose lazy gaze penetrates the sparkling theatre of excess' strobed lights?
To make it worse, sexual gladiators
Fix the old party children, all wake from their slumber to give you the baccara
Come to the light, into the light... the invisible light

An Invisible Light
An Invisible Light

I want An Invisible Light

To Keep Me Alive

I want to be sure of what it'll cost
I want to strangle the stars for all they promised me
I want you to call me on your drug phone
I want to keep you alive so there is always the possibility of murder later
I want to be there when you learn the cost of desire
I want you to understand that my malevolence is just a way to win
I want the name of the ruiner
I want matches in case I have to suddenly burn
I want you to know that being kind is overrated
I want to write my secret across your sky
I want to watch you lose control
I want to watch you lose
I want to know exactly what it's going to take
I want to see you insert yourself into glory
I want your touches to scar me so I'll know where you've been
I want you to watch when I go down in flames
I want a list of atrocities done in your name
I want to reach my hand into the dark and feel what reaches back
I want to remember when my nightmares were clearer
I want to be there when your hot black rage rips wide open
I want to taste my own kind
I want to be wrapped in cold wet sheets to see if it's different on this side
I want you to come on strong
I want to leave you out in the cold
I want the exact same thing... but different
I want some soft drugs.. some soft, soft drugs
I want to throw you
I want you to know I know
I want to know if you read me
I want to swing with my eyes shut and see what I hit
I want to know just how much you hate me so I can predict what you'll do
I want you to know the wounds are self-inflicted
I want a controlling interest
I want to be somewhere beautiful when I die
I want to be your secret hater
I want to stop destroying you but I can't
And I want and I want and I want
And I will always be hungry
And I want and I want and I want...

She's had a psychotic dream
For the last ten days.
She feels as if she's sinking
In and out, in and out, in and out of things.
She combs up her hair
She think she's a queen

Starts telling all the choir boys she's this

and where she has been.
She dresses in black only for the occasion
She thinks she's a negro, but she's only caucasian.
She can't tune in
She can't get off that bus
She can't grab hold
She's a mess this girl
And ...
Instead of watching my own dream
This is not what it seems, so calculated
Now that it's completed.
I'm cautious with daylight, I'm frightened by sunlight
But I know those nights have to keep me from harm.
Please try.
Keep on keeping me from harm.