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Lust is lust sex is sex love is love happy is happy pain is pain bad is bad good is good what am i what would i do if i could? Bad or good what i chose to be they leave me in the end. i am damned to walk this earth alone with out a friend. Has my sins brought karma? Have i pushed eveyone away am i full of drama? what is right what is wrong? i just want to feel love AND to be cared for been holding on to hope so long. Trying to find a understanding in a world that never accepted me. Trying to find love but I FAIL so miserly. The black raven follows me is it time to leave the earth I have been forsaken from. Will i go to heaven or hell what is the payment to live beyond the gates of heaven what is GOD's forgiven sum? Mortal corruption is in my soul. Never felt love only from God but never felt whole. Humans on earth wont accept me for who i am. i bleed like you im human like you why do they accept other people with flaws and still in they life but not in mine? what did i do i was born this way so much pain in my heart loneliness in my body in my mind. When SHALL this pass when shall it be time? Seem like everyone on earth is happy but me seem like everyone on earth is in the light but im in the dark seem like everyone in in the front im behind... tick tick time steady go im still stuck in the past still here. Love has abandoned me i think death is near...
Words of wisdom from people that don't even want to fuck with you gone somewhere..you not going to help me better my life but you will point out my flaws as a human being and tell me how to make things better we all know how to make it better but don't got the resources to do so or strength if I needed your touch or embrace you wouldnt come if I needed help you would just give me words.. People are a hidden devil. They speak to you nicely such kind words but against your they rebel. If I was dieing who would you tell? What if you could have prevented it but them meanless words is all you sold all you sale. What are words with out action. What are words of wisdom with out motion? You know I am stuck and have no way of going on. But you still speak your words of wisdom like the book of Psalms. It sounds good it sounds kind. It sounds like help you could but my imperfections is all you find. With words you try to touch and change my broken heart my broken mind. But all I do is sadly sigh. All you do is point out what I could be. But I don't need to be reminded of whats wrong with me. Don't speak just lay with me. I don't want to hear words or read them I want see. I want to see will you really help or just speak. But you never will nothing to touch just words something I can hold is what I see
