Dear Family, Friends, and Fubar people,
Well I am just upset back in Dec. I found out a close friend of mine has HPV and that it could lead to cancer. Well she had a pap and it came back that it was abnormal. It just got me down because I don't want to lose her. She has been someone that has helped me through the darkest parts of my life and she talked me out of killing myself also. It is just hard for me to deal with people that have cancer because I lost some one that I loved and hold dear to me and that was my mom's mother. I was her baby boy, and first grandson so I was close to her. But I know that cancer can go away but yet it can come back and people die from it and thats what scares me about my friend because that threat of losing her.
Death itself does not bother me it is the fear of losing one that I care, love, or have been friends with that scares me the most. She says not to worry about her but I do it, thats just who I am and you will find that out if you take time to get to know me.
I am just having a hard week, over this past weekend me and my girl had gone out to play some slots at the casino and we took her ex just to be nice. While I was playing blackjack he got touchy feely with her and I did not know this at the time. Then I went over to her and she had told me what had happened. I had told him before not to do that I wanted to say something to him but she does not want me to do anything. But I just want to kick his teeth in for what he did. Then he tries to tell her how to spend her money. I told her she can do what she wants with it. I just don't know what to do with him. But I do know that if he tries to rape her he is a dead man walking.
I know that I need to get out of town I feel like that I could do some harm to him but I have tryed to control it. But I just don't know how much more I can take and what would you all do if you are in my shoes?
Well got to go for now
Much Love
Andrew
