SHADOW OF SORROW's blog: "wishing u enough"

http://www.wtov9.com/news/18960202/detail.html http://www.wtov9.com/news/18950669/detail.html AS I SIT HERE TONITE I THINK OF A CHILD NAMED CHRIS JOY JR..HE WAS 18 MO OLD CHILD BEATEN TO DEATH BY HIS MOTHERS BOY FRIEND..CHRIS HAD LIVED WITH HIS GRANDMOTHER AND FATHER ALL HIS LIVE FOR CHILD SERVICES CAME AND PICKED UP CHRIS TOOK HIM TO HIS MOTHERS HOUSE SAYING SHE WAS REHABALITAITED..A WEEK LATER HE WAS FOUND BEATEN DUE TO BLUNT FORCE TRAUMA .. THERE WAS PICTURES TAKEN OF CHRIS NOT BUT 3 DAYS PRIOR OF HIM WITH BRUSES ALL OVER HIS BODY .. BUT NO REPORT WAS MADE BY CHILD SERVICES TO THE POLICE .. WICH MEANS AT 18 MO OLD THAT LIL BOY WAS TAKEN FROM HIS LIFE.. AND ONES THAT LOVED AND CARED FOR HIM WAS ..TAKEN BY THE CHILD SERVICES AND PLACED IN HANDS THAT BEAT HIM FOR A WEEK THAT CAUSED HIM TO DIE..ABOVE ARE SOME LINKS TO THE NEW BRIEFIENG..I SIT AND WRITE THIS LETTER BECAUSE CRIS'S GRAND MOTHER WAS A FAMILY FRIEND AND IT HIT TO CLOSE TO MY HEART THEN I FELT ASHAMED CAUSE I LOOKED UP CHILD ABUSE AND IT IS A SUBJECT WE NEED TO LEARN AND DO MORE ABOUT TO MANY CHILDREN IN THIS WORLD IS BEAING ABUSED,RAPED,BEATEN,OR ALL OF THE ABOVE..THEESE CHILDREN DID NOT ASK TO BE HERE AND TOO MANY CHILD ARE SUFFERING CAUSE THEY WERE PUT HERE .

THE WIND SING SONGS OF SORROW THE RAIN CRYS TEARS OF PAIN BROKEN HEARTS DUE TO FORGOTTEN LOVE I HAVE LOST FAITH IN THE FATES ABOVE YOU ARE GONE BUT THE PAIN REMAINS IN MY HEART IT WILL STAY AND ENDLESS THOUGHT LOST IN PAIN FULL MEMORIES LOVE DIES.. FAITH LEAVES..HOPE FADES.. WISHES THAT ARE NO LONGER WORTH DREAMING

i sit here and wonder why do we..have the wanting to be loved.. why do we feel that love is worth it to many question and no answers where do we find the answers of the questions that our heart asks i just wonder is love worth wishing for is dreams worth dreaming theese are the questions i wish i had answers to i do stand in the shadows of life and love i satand alone not knowing wich way i should go should i apoligize to my heart for wanting to be loved are there some unspoken rules if so how do u know when you broke them i guess we follow what we believe and hope in the end we have no regrets i have just now learned with out hope we have no faith and with out both we have no reason to be ourself.. but who is one with out with out hope if we do not believe in what we are or who we can become.. how can we believe in a future too many questions and not very many answers ..for i find that love is a gift not an obligation..to love one is no promise they love you in return for that is the risk that faith and hope guides us too.. lost and confused not knowing wich way to go lost and confused twisted and used i do know you should never laet any ony know u hurt never let them see your pain..that is the true sighn of pure weakness.. no matter how much one hurts never let them see that pain for that is true humilation

i sit here and dream of a love so strong that the wind and rain sing songs of joy i want desire and passion but i am beginning to think love like that is only in fairy tales and movies i dont remember what it feels like to be with some one who wants me or someone who enjoys holding each other or kissing in the rain.. long walk to nowhere just to be with eachother dreams and empty wishes i need to ask my heart to forgive me for believeing i was worth dreaming of love.. maybe i had my chances of love..i tend to think that i should let go of my silly dreams of love.. im not sure how to turn of a dream ..one lesson i wish i knew..i need to step away from my dreams and my wanting..so maybe i can heal the whole in my heart the emptyness that fills my soul a hollow feeling of nothing ..but wanting..that i do wish would go away.. i sit here and pray to the goddess to plz turn off the feeling i have inside ..i ask my heart to forgive me for believeing i could ever be worth loveing..blessed be.. may your dreams come true

some times in ones life they find thems selfs lost..lost in cunfuseion wonder where they belong..wonder how to love..just lost in a world of things they know nothing of...i am not a person who has many answers but a life time of questions...there came a time in my life i where i am getting lost.. is almost helping me see where i want to be and how to get there..but doing it is something i fell that has to be done on my own..noone can guide you to your place in life... it has to be your own will your own inner strength to reach the desires and life i see befor me..to heal i think must begin within befor you can heal the ones you hurt in life ..everyones hurts some one in their life time but forgeivness is true peace to forgive others is always easir then forgiveing your self..i know i am just babbleing but some things i need to say.. i do hope that i am forgiven for the pain i have caused..i never ment to hurt any one in my life.. well i am done ranting ..thanks and blessed be

I WISH YOU ENOUGH A wish for enough!!! Have a great day!! Recently I overheard a mother and daughter in their last moments together at the airport. They had announced the departure. Standing near the security gate, they hugged and the mother said, 'I love you and I wish you enough'. The daughter replied, 'Mom, our life together has been more than enough. Your love is all I ever needed. I wish you enough, too, Mom'. They kissed and the daughter left. The mother walked over to the window where I was seated. Standing there I could see she wanted and needed to cry. I tried not to intrude on her privacy but she welcomed me in by asking, 'Did you ever say good-bye to someone knowing it would be forever?'. Yes, I have,' I replied. 'Forgive me for asking, but why is this a forever good-bye?'. 'I am old and she lives so far away. I have challenges ahead and the reality is - the next trip back will be for my funeral,' she said. 'When you were saying good-bye, I heard you say, 'I wish you enough'. May I ask what that means?'. She began to smile. 'That's a wish that has been handed down from other generations. My parents used to say it to everyone'. She paused a moment and looked up as if trying to remember it in detail and she smiled even more. 'When we said , ' I wish you enough', we were wanting the other person to have a life filled with just enough good things to sustain them'. Then turning toward me, she shared the following as if she were reciting it from memory.. I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright no matter how gray the day may appear. I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun even more. I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive and everlasting. I wish you enough pain so that even the smallest of joys in life may appear bigger. I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting. I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess. I wish you enough hellos to get you through the final good-bye. She then began to cry and walked away. They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them but then an entire life to forget them. *Only if you wish send this to the people who have touched your life, it may well bring a smile to their heart that lives forever. TAKE TIME TO LIVE...... To all my friends and loved ones, I WISH YOU ENOUGH