my nerves are shot and I need to type. I guess the shit is hitting the fan. The fan being my nerves. So bear with me. Im sorry once again. I haven't been like this in a long time and its all because of my kid. Thats horrible. Not only is my stomach in knots but my hands are trembling again and Im sure my ecezema will get worse sooner or later lol. Yes I am a mess. All this from stress. Good God. I had tests about 2 years ago because they thought I had Parkinsons. Turned out to be tremors but it doesn' act up unless I am stressed. And for over a year I have been on the lexapro and I haven't had any problems and my stress levels have been down etc and now all this is upsetting it all. And to top it off, my exboyfriend who I was with the other night, well his girlfriend works where I work and now they are going to transfer her to my store. To have to look at her will kill me. Granted I work in the backroom and she is customer service so I won't see her that much. But just knowing and the fact that I will run into her every so often. YUCK Why is it that when life is finally good, soemthing always disrupts it; makes it bad again. I must of been pretty bad in a past life. I am sure paying for it in this one. Whats funny is things always work out and I know that but it still stresses me out. Im starting to gain even more weight because I just eat all the time. On my days off I just sleep because I can't sit in the same house with her. I don't bother going out because she will want to come with me so I just go in my room and sleep the day away. So of course I get nothing done. The roofs leaking. She brought roaches with her and they are getting worse. Last night we had pizza for dinner and when I got up this morning the crusts were sitting by her computer. Not even on a plate. Just laying there. Candy wrappers every where. An overflowing ashtray. Geez Joanthan just took off his diaper and I went in her room to get another and a candle of mine was in there. Along with some Lime away and some personal things just strewn all over. I bet my license is in there too. I am going to have a nervous breakdown real soon. And here you are a great guy and I am sitting here drowning my sorrows on you. You must think I am some kind of lunatic. Just so happens all this is happening right after I meet you. I was fine not too far back. lol
