I should not feel like this again...
i have been blessed with so much already in my life...
I have wonderful friends who love me dearly, and beyond mere words they have been here for me...
i should just settle on the fact that i am not ment to have another man in my life to share my time with...
mind is sreaming this fact at me every day!!!
once again i find my spirit has a mind of its own, i found a friend in a young man who seems to just know me...
jaded i have been and jaded i still am...
i cant seem to reach out like i used...
i ache inside to share again but cant seem to break thru that wall that seperates me from my new friend...
my close friends around me seem to find the one that can be real in their lives
to profess their love too and have it returned to them in folds
why do i sit and shed these tears aching for the same for me
its so much easier to stay walled up, but i fight my own heart
just wish it would lay still and b quiet
