I am done trying to meet anyone it just doesn't work for me anymore.. I think I just keep fuckin up or caring or something... It's a waste of time.. I mean even if I am with someone I worry that they are gonna go cheat on me ... yeah I get kinda "psycho"..
I try not to.. I try to be non chalant about everything.. but I notice that when I don't get a call back from a guy I am interested in or I think he is interested in me I get all trippy or hurt..
DAMN I am too old to be acting like a sorry ass like this.. it's lame so lame..plus the fact that most the guys that have been "interested' in me are like 10 years younger... I guess I will just need to be more confident.. fuck it I say fuck it fuck it.
