Alison's blog: "My Poetry"

Why Did I Let You Catch Me

Why did I let you catch me

When I was falling down

Couldn't I just let myself

Finally hit the ground

Would've been much better there

Instead I held on to you

Let you take control of me

Now it's time we're through

Never thought it would come to this

You left me here with no choice

Thought you would call all the shots

But today I finally have a voice

It's telling you to leave me alone

To cut your losses and be on your way

All this time you caused me pain

I opened my eyes and now I won't stay

I'll walk away and not look back

You were never anything to look back on

Neither were our dreams and memories

Everything we had is too far gone

We can't get any of it back

You can blame yourself for that one

I tried my hardest to make it work

But it looks as though you finally won

You got exactly what you wanted

And that was to be rid of me

I can't say that I am too surprised

This was how it was supposed to be

So I will sit here and cut my losses

And at the same time I'll cut out my heart

I'll lay the pieces down at your feet

And one day it will tear you apart

One day you will realize what you gave up

You may even try to come crawling back

But we both know I won't have that

Because what I need is what you lack

So don't you even bother trying

To make up for all this time we lost

Nothing you do or say will make this up

I've paid far more than my share of the cost