It's spring once again and my skin is a pale yellow compared to the crispy brown of summers past. I think I'm 30 pounds overweight and tons of gym days short of my perfect bikini body goal. Soooooooo, I'm starting my fitness program again, but it sucks to know that I have to work so hard to keep up. Sometimes I just want to give up, but it's so so so so hard to do that whenever summer rolls around. I love dressing like a woman and unfortunately, rolls don't make me feel that sexy lol. I just want to know that girls all over have to work just as hard as I do. Sometimes I think bombshells are just born that way and that the amercia's next top model wanna be's are just blessed with perfect bodies. I don't really give a shit. I just know that this summer is going to be better than last summer, and that all the suffering I'm going to go through for the next year will pay off eventually =) So long to sugar and carbs...we'll meet again soon maybe next thanksgiving lol