bruja annestar's blog: "who are you?"

i used to have this in my "about me" section on my profile but it took up a shitload of space.. so.. here it is now..

the name is ANNE. not ann or anna or annie. Anne like Anne Frank.

i know who i am and im comfortable with it. im a very loyal friend and i have proved it to many. i dont try to lie and be someone im not online because my life sucks. im the SAME person online as i am offline and in person. yes, im on fu a lot. yes, i have systemic lupus erythematosus (SLE) aka LUPUS I was diagnosed 26 years ago (i was 13 and in the 8th grade - Nov 1997) and now have rheumatoid arthritis and Lupus nephritis along with Kidney disease stage 3, osteoarthritis in my left foot and i was very recently diagnosed with Fibromyalgia (Feb 2019) and gout (2021) when I had gastric sleeve surgery. Yes, that's the weight surgery - i have lost 150-155lbs since July 2018. I have been through countless treatments (pharma including chemotherapy, various pills and essential oils, meditation, acupressure, aquatic therapy) and won't stop fighting! yes, im single. no, im not married. no, i dont have kids. i actually have PREMATURE OVARIAN FAILURE (IM WAY ON THE OTHER SIDE OF MENOPAUSE.. like.a 75 yr old woman) due to the chemos i was on and my chronic illnesses and family medical history. i am NOT allowed to live alone or work because of my lupus and the other llnesses i have. i cannot guarantee that i will be able to walk tomorrow when i wake up or even in 3 hours. yes, i have a lot of friends i still hang out with and communicate with (not just on FB lol) that i met in elementary school, middle school, jr high and high school. my friends are VERY protective of me. ive been through a LOT of personal things that people couldnt even imagine. it sucked, but it molded me and lead me to the path im on now - which makes me VERY happy. yes, im a daddy's girl. no, i dont have daddy issues or uncles who crossed barriers. yes, i have 2 cousins (first cousins) on fu. yes, they know what i do and how the game is played. yes, i also have friends ive known over 15 years on fu. i have found some fu friends who have mutual friends with me and its awesome. yes, im pro cannibis and im high right now. if this offends you, that sucks i guess. i am a very open minded person, but dont try to change my views or who i am as a person. I DONT PUT UP WITH LIARS. i love literally all music - this includes country (REAL country, not this stupid rock/pop country shit thats coming out now). im not a grammar nazi, but i DO get annoyed that so many high school graduates and people with CC or university degrees STILL do not know how to use the words: SEEN, SAW, THEIR, THEYRE, THERE, TOO, TWO, TO, YOURE, YOUR, WHERE AND WERE. i DO share my skype, kik, number, FB to those i get to KNOW, but obviously not all at once. baby steps. i have some hardcore loyal friends that i WILL do everything i can for them but they are not all in my "fu family". i dont need to have them in there for them to know where they are in my heart. i have my funeral songs picked out. THE KEYS TO MY VAGINA: Pink Floyd, DSOTM, Incubus, Prince, Beastie Boys, Texas, Houston culture (foods, music, etc), movies set place in Houston or Austin, Foo Fighters, [adult swim], Will Ferrell, Kevin Smith movies, Alice in Wonderland, 60s-90s pop culture (music, movies, icons, Seattle, movies set in those decades), medical marijuana, sushi, traveling, STARS/outer space, classic Disney cartoon movies, nerds, 70s-90s SNL, Peewee Herman, family bond, Hall & Oates, Quentin Tarantino movies, Cowboy Bebop, Empire Records, Riff Raff, OLD GREGG, theology, SNL Movies (characters from SNL who were given a movie ie: Coneheads, Superstar, A Night at the Roxbury), the afterlife, Daria, BATMAN, old school ATARI/NINTENDO, lilies, hummingbirds, poppies, the: ROCKETS, TEXANS, ASTROS.blings i collect: stars, lilies, pop culture movies & characters, skulls, diamonds, rings, sushi, hearts, butterflies, 420 friendly, anything 25+ credits, achievement blings, fairies/pixies, any flowers that ARENT pink or red roses. if you made it this far, congrats! send me a message or profile comment saying so =]

 

 

To better understand Lupus and its symptoms, check out these links:

http://www.nlm.nih.gov/medlineplus/ency/article/000435.htm

http://www.medicinenet.com/systemic_lupus/article.htm

http://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/lupus/basics/definition/con-20019676

 

To better understand Premature Ovarian Failure and its symptoms, check out these links:

https://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/premature-ovarian-failure/symptoms-causes/syc-20354683

https://my.clevelandclinic.org/health/diseases/17963-primary-ovarian-insufficiency