Princess Marshmallow DNO's blog: "when"

So You have a broken heart. Could it realy be carma. I know I am a firm beliver in carma. I also know that things happen for a reason. I may not know why as fast as I want to but I know there is a reason. The funny thing is that people in my life have a strange way of showing me that they love me. I always get hurt by the ones I love and trust. And I have come to realize that is what I am owed. Carma is a bitch and when it hits you it hits you hard. And so on this thought I have 3 questions for you. Why is it ok to put someone else feelings above those of someone you love? Is telling a half trueth actully telling the trueth? And if you cant trust someone why do you want them in your life? I have these questions running around in my head all the time. I have to wonder how many others wonder these same things. Broken hearts have a way of mending and they say what dosent kill you only makes you stronger.

I tried to sleep and hoped I the pain would go away. Instead I rembered the last time i was hurt this bad. I have to admit the counsler raely got me to belive what cam out of her mouth. She told me that it was ok to trust someone.that is something i do not do. Untill i opened up to you. I know that your sorry and i know that you didnt mean to. I just wonder when I am going to be able to feel that peace again. I did nothing wrong this time and I have no b;lame. All i have is hurt something I never though I would get from you

The saying gose a lepord can never change its spots.What hurts the most is the fact that I was never givin a chance to show how much I have changed and grown, And to know that you dont trust me enough to find out. My heart hurts in a way that I can not describe. At this point all I can do is wonder Why. I need to know why you wouldnt tell me. You know the way I could behave and you know what I could do.I have worked so hard to remove that part of me. So why would you push me to that point. Or is it that you want to see me be that person again so you can walk away and Say "see I told you she was nuts." I have gone numb to my feelings. And I realy have no clue where my thought are on this.I just want you to rember that Its all about carma. For those that dont understand what comes around gose around and you will get yours.

Life is a ride you have to sit back and enjoy it. Or so they say. I say take the wheel and take controll. Then you can make anything happen in your life. Only you can make you happy. And hell if this dosen't help then get a gun and shoot something that allways makes me feel better!!!!!!!

OH MY GOD I had a blast last night. My first ever hip hop show. It was awsome. Monster Maker Tour ~Sharky & C-Rayz Walz with DJ P-NYCE~ I have to say they have a damn good show. After the show I got to go with NoNameProductions back to there Hotel just to chill.I have to say that they were a great group of guys to hang with.You know my eyes have been opened to a new world thanks to NoNameProductions I love you guys...

Well I have gotten a staff.So now things should lighten up..My nerves are a reck and I still hate work but things are going to get better.. I hope. Im still trapped in the hell I call retail but I guess thats where i belong..Hell i good at it But I am realy thinking of changing the direction in my life so lets just see what happens

I am starting to wonder how..How am i going to continue to work the way I am.. How am i going to be able to keep up with taking care of my kids..I work so damn much now..I get home just in time to tell them goodnight.. I wake up in the morning wondering when or how is this going to end..

Here it is the 4th day to hit a 12hr day in a row..I am so burned out on work.. I am begaining to hate the damn place..I have come to realize that I am trapped in retail hell forever