shylilly's blog: "when is"

is there any noble guys left in the world?

I want a guy who will be 100% honest at all times about everything. I keep nothing there for they shouldn't have to keep secrets from me.

I want a guy who is 100% loyal

I want a guy who doesn't cheat

I want a guy who doesn't lie

I want a guy who don't talk shit behind your back about you just to make his own self look good

I want a guy who likes kids, but he either has to have children of his own or don't want any of his own because I can't have any more

I want a guy who enjoys the small things, like kissing and cuddling, and time together. and who isnt judgemental

and most of all the guy must be willing to make a commitment to the relationship otherwords he has to want to be in a relationship and take it serious not like oh yea i have a girl but i just ignore her and lie etc im not into them kind of games.

And the guy can not say love u onless he really mean it i don't need fake or hopeless love i would rather go with out.

non normal ppl are welcome lol

ok takeing over a new leave so read if u want but dont bitch i didnt tell u first forget the whole shy nice part cause that im not gonna be next remember u dont know me and most likely will never know me the way u want to...do not say u love me if u dont and dont pretend u do i can tell when its a fake ... dont say what u dont mean ... dont try to fill my head with bullshit.... and just because u want me does not mean i want u and just because im nice doesn't mean i wanna hook up ..... i don't belong to u or anyone else for that matter .... and more then likely it will stay that way dont message me and say is this blog meant for me cause i will be a bitch and say yes .. if u like me or hate me just say so im no mind reader and i chose not to become one .... i chose to be ur friend i didnt have to and i sure as hell dont need fake ones... what i do is my business no one else unless i chose to share and at this point i dont......u have no ideal what im thinking or feeling or what kind of shit runs thro my head so dont act like u do.... if i wanna share i will at my own time not urs ....i was just find alone in my own world and have no problems staying there ...... dont compare me to others cause im nothing like them and if ur so obsessed with other ppl that u feel the need to talk about them all the time then go find them and leave me alone im no ones rebound or temp or fwb or anything else i am human words and actions do hurt and do leave a mark even if u dont think so i bleed i cry i feel pain and i feel anger just like everyone else i may forgive but i dont forget i will remember everything u have said and done and i only give a small percent of chances before i say fuck off ... and it stays like that..... i wont answer any messages tomorrow i will be home but i will not be online so if there is anything u wanna say then yim me if u have it of message me on fubar or on yahoo mail shylilly_665@yahoo.com thats all thanks shy/jenn

ok for friends family and ppl who like lol if you want me or need to get ahold of me here is how u can do it e-mail shylilly_665@yahoo.com yim shylilly_665 you have better luck there cause i will be off here for awile thanks for looking shy

when is someone good enough... you give your life to someone ... your there for them no matter what .... you stood up for them against everyone ... you put up with all the hurtful things they say to you.... you deal with the pain when they tell you that your not good enough... you struggle when they say they don't care you locked yourself away inside and gave them forgiveness every time they raise there hand to you .... you made yourself believe them every time they said sorry i wont do it again even if you know it wasn't true threw all your pain and suffering you still stayed by there side and still forgave them .... what the hell gives them the right to tell you its all your fault and why do we believe it is even when we know better ... why even after they tell you they don't care and they don't love you and that u made them unhappy for so long ... does it still hurt ... why is it at that moment all you wish for is a soft stroke of deaths hand to release you from your nightmare .... why do they get a happy fucking ending wile your stuck in a fucking loop that doesn't end ... why does there future look so bright .... when yours looks so dark and lonely .... and why in this time do we believe every person who says they care and they love you .... and why do we wish to bring pain to ourselves instead of giving it to the person who caused u pain to begin with ..... when do i get my happy fucking ending ... (just a little anger relief)