So I sit here broken hearted because my internet sweetheart has revealed their true love online. Am I alone thinking there is love here, there anywhere. I once thought I had love then it disappeared then I found it again and once again it escaped me. After many years of marriage love vanished before I knew it escaped and then I wondered is love just in my mind or does it really exists? Was I ever really in love or did I just wish it happened to me so I was happy at the thought of someone finding it with me.
I can't deny that I am always happy to see my friends happy and find someone to share life and love with, but what of me? Yes I know I am not alone and other's face it every day, but it doesn't relieve my pain any less. I just go on with a smile on my face faking happiness so I don't share my sorrow but where can I put it all?
No I am not looking for sympathy, in fact I don't even care if anyone responds. I just want to feel that happiness again. Sure I have faith in God but he cannot hold me and comfort me like someone here in the flesh. I never thought in the flesh was bad but I'm starting to change my tune.
Maybe I need to write a new song and pour all these feelings of abandonment and sorrow. Maybe I just need someone else to cry with me.
Loneliness sucks! Questions, questions, questions!
I need answers!
