gcholden darklilys fubitch's blog: "Whatever"

There has been a lot of talk about 'point hoes' lately. I would just like to clarify for all those who read this... i am not a point hoe. I didn't join this site just to gain levels. I have only asked once for help to level (yesterday) but that was only cause i had something stupid like 900 points til my next level.... and it was annoying the shit out of me. If i was a point hoe, i would be asking for people to rate/fan/add me for more points still, even though i have just leveled up. i ain't gonna do that. People can do all that stuff for IF they want to and WHEN they want to. I joined this site to talk to people. And the people i have spoken to so far are great people. I am glad to have met them. I will now apologise though for not talking much to you all. But I do have a reason. I am only on dial up at the moment. It takes about 5 minutes for a fubar page to load up on my computer. This makes it difficult to chat to people on here. Which is why I try to catch up with people on weekends if I am at my parents place (they have broadband hehe). And i am sorry if I don't get to all of you on those days, but i do try. So yeah... i aint a point hoe, just for those who are wondering... and to those that are... get a life! Why dont you try to get know people instead of trying to get points off them.

It is great to see so many people showing the luv. When I joined this site, I thought it would just like the rest. You add someone as a friend and then you never hear from them again. But it ain't. If I had a better internet connection at home, I would be at the fubar all day everyday, but i dont :(( Oh well, I am just happy to see so many people spreading the love around. And to all those who have shown me love and rated my pics/stash/me.... in the past few hours... I will get back to you and rate you all when i can.... it seems i have reached my daily limit. But i haven't forgotten yas.

This is just a blah blog. I am very tired... but for some reason i cant get to sleep. So i am going to sit here and ramble on for a while about nothing, anything, everything, just whatever pops into my head. I am just going to let my fingers type and whatever comes up on screen is what is going into this blog. Aquatic chickens!!!! Don't ask me where that came from. I know that it is a saying that my mate dark_lily used to say when she was at school... but i dont quite remember its origins. Will have to ask her about that again one day... or you guys can... whoever reads this.. which probably will be only a couple of people... cant say i am not realistic...lol. Cars suck. Well, they dont really but mine is being a biatch at the moment. But i wont go into that. Considering that the problem with it is most likely just the battery. I want to sleep... why cant i just close my eyes and drift away into dreamland.... instead of closing my eyes and just laying there for what feels like hours and hours on end... waiting for that elusive feeling of drifting away. Oh whatever... this just letting the words flow thing isnt really working.. i am going to go to bed and see if i can sleep now.... night

I am feeling old today. My children do this to me. Especially on their birthdays... and today being my youngest girls birthday... i am feeling it again. She is 2 today. I know some of you are thinking, thats not that old.... but when you consider that i also have a 7yr old daughter... when the youngest has a birthday.... doesnt matter how old they are... you are going to feel old. She is just growing up too quick. I just want them to stay those cute little babies who eat and then sleep and then eat and then sleep... all day. They were easier to manage. They didnt talk back to you. They couldnt. You didnt have to chase them anywhere... they couldnt run or walk. But they have to grow up... its all what life is about. They grow into toddlers. They start talking... and you start understanding them. They run everywhere... i suppose at least im starting to get into shape from chasing her around everywhere. They get into all the things that arent allowed to... and are really sneaky about it... but then thats how they learn what they are and arent allowed to do.... right and wrong. Then they turn into little children and all the questions start. "How does this work?" "Why does this happen?" "Whats this?" and so on. And they just dont listen. Then the punishments start..... no tv, time-outs, grounding. And thats where i am at at the moment. And looking at my children and their personalities now, i am not looking forward to their teenage years. But then they may settle down before then.... i hope. But we do clash quite often at the moment and if thats any indication of what their teenage years might be like.... then boy am i in trouble. But what can i do.... til next time..........

hey all... hope everyone is well... once again i am going to apologise for not updating this sooner... but i am still waiting on brother to get my computer at home up and running... scooter lol....so everything with me and my wonderful sexy man is going great... he got a year older last friday... and boy was he a mess that night. He said he got to the pub at about 3 that afternoon... i got there between 5:30 and 6... and he was already a bit pissy... swaying back and forth and starting to slur. But it was a great night... he spent maybe all of $20 all night due to the fact that every single person in the pub bought him at least one drink... gotta love people in small towns.... and a few even bought a couple of shots to go with it. so by the time it hit 9, he was well and truly smashed.... but surprisingly still standing... and he stayed that way till about 12 when my best mate, who just happens to be a barmaid at the pub, told him no more shots... i stood and watched as my happy drunkard of a boyfriend suddenly turned against everyone... we were all out to get him just coz he couldnt have any more shots... he was allowed to keep drinking... but he wanted more shots. Not being able to get them, he stormed out... before coming back in to tell me he was leaving, then he stormed out again.... only to come back inside as he was out of ciggies and needed change for the smoke machine. He gets his change all the while swearing at karla... but it turns out he is 10cents short but doesnt realise til the machine spits his money out twice (and i think one of the other patrons kindly told him), finds the extra money in his wallet, gets his smokes... and storms out once again. Meanwhile i am standing at the bar, drink in hand, wondering whether i should laugh, or shake my head.... Karla knocks off work and i finish my last drink just as she starts her first. I told her i would love to stay and drink with her.. but the love of my life is wandering around outside drunk as all f*#k and i had better go find him. It doesnt take me long... he was waiting across the road in the park on the swing... finishing his can of beam. He starts going off again... at this point i hear silence from the campers in the caravan park who are on the opposite side of the fence. I listen to him patiently, ranting and raving, swearing, and try to make him sense... at least enough to calm him down and get him home to bed. But everything i say just sets him off louder. I finally gave up and told him that if he wasnt gonna listen then i was leaving...and thats what i did.. left him on the swing while i headed back to his. I swear that i could hear the campers having a quiet laugh at us as i walked away. Make a long story a bit shorter.... we get back to his, sort everything out, have great sex, sleep, have more sex, more sleep and everything is great. And i love him even more than ever..... awwww how soppy i can hear you all saying. but its the truth..... But enough for now... i will update you on everything else... probably next weekend... so until then..............................

Ok.. my first blog entry on cherrytap and i have no fcking clue what to write. I am currently sitting at my parents house. My computer at home is fcked. So i am only online every 2-4 weeks.. at least until my pc is fixed. But you guys dont want to hear about that. And the sad thing is i dont have anything else to write about at the moment. But that is probably coz i have been too poor lately to go out with mates and hit the town. And its driving me mental. I just want to go out and drink myself into a stupor. Then i would be able to get through another couple weeks. Coz even just one night out drinking every couple of weeks is like a holiday.. and when you have kids you will understand why... if you dont already. But i am going to a dinner tonight at a mates place.. and i only have to take bubs with me.... so i might be able to sneak in a few drinks while i am there. Not enough to get sht-faced... but enough to relax. Which is all i want. Anyways.. i got something down for my first blog.. and hopefully the next one will be more interesting... til next time