photoshop cant really fix ugly's blog: "what the hell is wrong with people today..."

i love him so much all i want is to hold him, feel him close to me... but he doesnt love me anymore so i get to sit here alone, upset, and kinda cold....how could he lose his love?? or did he...he tells me its not my fault..that its just him..that hes unstable ...i cant help but feel that he has lost all love for me but my friend says he tells her that he still cares about me...i wish he would talk to me...i know he has already told me why he feels the need to be alone i just need consolation and for some reasaon i want it to be from him...i feel like my whole world is crashing down... and despite the fact that he is the one who hurt me i still want him to be the one to make me feel better as well...he is the only person who can...i cant do it alone and no matter how hard my friends try they wont be able to heal me either ...i just need him that is all...thats my love ...my life... my heart and soul belong to this man and i wont let him throw them back at me...he may not want them anymore but they are his...

What the hell is it about the human race that makes us so fucked in the head... all this competition always a fight for the top a race to the finish line. its so frickin pathetic and lame . i wish for one day i was intellectual enough to know why the human brain works the way it does... Why everyday guys run around postinng blogs about how personality is really what counts yet the only women they are interested in talking to look like or are skank whores... Why is this society so fucked in the head we have little 16 year old girls starving themselves and lying about their ages so they can post nude or mostly nude pics of themselves all over lost cherry or myspace ...and why??? because this fucking world has raised them to believe that this is how a woman should look ...what the hell and of course most men; not all of them; but most..even the ones posting the bulletins about how personality is what really matters...or guys dont really like skanks...those are the guys cheering this shit on..posting and reposting those little comments that say hott or sexy...which honestly only makes that girl think what she is doing to her body is ok so,hey fuck it she skips a meals for another couple of days...the guys on lost cherry love it dont they...as do the ones on myspace and in this world in general...its fucked up... guys are fucked in the head for the simple fact that they want girls to look like whores and have perfect barbie bodys,but when a girl has said "qualities" she ends up with a douchbag who cheats lies and is generally a chovanistic fucking moron...and girls are fucked up because we dont expect near as much from men therefore they dont have to deal with those kinds of pressures..we allow them tho think its ok to treat women like meat...ok i am totally speaking generally because i know alot of really good guys that dont act this way and i also know alot of great gals who would never let a man or society make them something that they arent, but my message is general and applys to many or most so someone explain this shit to me..why the fuck does it have to be like this??? a man would never want his wife to act or look like a nasty skank so ladies turn off the fucking webcams put some fucking clothes on and find a real man...jeeze c'mon seriously quit being societal fucking drones...your pathetic... quit worrying about the size of your tits and read a damn book...grow a brain...hey maybe even wear clothes when your having your picture taken..true beauty lies within...everyone hears it...everyone knows it..noone lives by it... give it a try..you might even get a real man who loves you for who you are not your cup size....stupid thats all i have to say...just plain stupid... ok have a nice day...i'm totally done now...♥ nikki