Ravenwynd Queen of Chaos's blog: "what if"

so, i totally got immersed in running absolute-chaos.com and forgot about Fubar lol.

Things have progressed to the point of mr. rockebrity being a total dickwad douche and just disapearing off the face of the earth. Married lying piece of shit.... I will never EVER get involved with ANYONE on the internet EVER AGAIN!!! 

If I can't touch ya - I don't want to even talk... well, hi and how are you are ok - but this "long distance relationship" crap is a total scam and a hoax and anyone who thinks its more is gonna get hurt just as much if not worse than I did. I know, at my age I should know better but, I never had the experience prior and NOW I will NEVER have the experience again.

I believe in Long Distance Connections - but not a relationship. That douche really did a number on me and I hope karma slaps him up side the head and he gets more than his share of BAD JOO JOO!!!

just remember ROCKEBRITY.COM is being run by a low life con artist... don't go there (you may even get a virus!)

WHINE FEST OVER!

so how by you foo?

what if everything you ever wanted doesn't want you? Where do you go from THAT heartache...

so lost

dont think its me... ive reached out, ive given everything i have to give and yet its left on the side of the road like trash. how can the choice between someone who is willing to do everything for you.... someone who would even take the chance and may die for you and a nasty troll be logical? HOW.... what is it within that makes you stay with that choice rather than take a chance and be happy for the rest of your life?

im so hurt.... been hurt for months.... and you continue to twist the knife in my heart... deeper and deeper until all i have left is the empty shell i entered in to this "relationship" with... i am devastated that you think i am worthless in your eyes... a mere fantasy that isn't real... im as real as it gets and so many others have offered their friendship during this last year and what did i do? I laughed at them.... i had the most amazing man in the universe.... my one true love.... my bloodwynd. my love for you so great that your name is forever a part of me now... forever.

i thought we were forever

i thought you loved me as i love you

now you dont call... no texts....as little contact as you can possibly put forth... a baby girl needs her Daddy... now i fill the empty moments with the laughter of others... empty because you dont want me... not for realz.... not forever....

what happened bloodwynd? why are you so real to me and i just a mindless fantasy for you :(