Last night I was playing Truth or Dare, and I was asked a truth.. to paraphrase.. 'what is your favorite fantasy' or something of the sort..
I dont have many fantasies, and what i do have, i rarely think of in ranking.. i have some that are more desirable than others.. but, my brain went to one of my odder 'fantasies'.
or maybe not odd, just, not exactly a fantasy. because this is something i see as a general necesity.. this is what i need in a slave. I have only been really Dominant for 2 years or so.. though ive practiced BDSM for nearly 14 years.. so though i may be very experianced.. i never really asked me what i wanted..
so here it is in the form of prose.
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what i want:
A woman of sound mind and body.
She must want what to change, to be something else.. but i would prefer her not to want it because she hates what she is now, but if it must be I will put out the effort to heal that self hatred.
She does not have to be 'beauiful' she does not have to be 'thin' she does not have to be the ideal perfection. but she must be honest, she must be dedicated, and she must know herself.
She will become my project, my masterpiece, my art, my slave, my property, and my gift.
I will learn her body as if it were my own.. I will know every inch of her, inside and out.. I will know where to touch to get what response i want.. and where to hurt to punish or guide.
I will learn her heart, knowing her needs and whims, knowing what she desires, and encorporate those needs and wants in to my final project. I will learn to tug on her heart strings, as if plucking an angelic harp, vibrating her emotions to her core.
I will learn her mind, as if my own, I will know every fear, interest.. I will learn what she knows, and I will learn to teach her, train her, guide her, and punish her.. I will know every drak nich within her, every secret, every fantasy and horror.
She will then give to me, her heart, her mind, and her body.
With such, I will change her, I will remake her, I will take what she was born and what she grew up to be.. shatter it, crush it, melt it, reform it.
She will embrace the journy we both will take.. and she will devote her life to it, me, and herself.
We will spend the next stage in our lives, growing together, while i remake her, guiding her growth.. weather it takes a year.. a decade.. or untill the day we die.
To her I will devote my energies, an my life.. and when we have concluded.. she will have free choice over herself once more.. including the choice to stay.
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and there you go.. that is what i want.. and perhapse I shall be forever unfulfilled.. but, i accept that, I take 'lesser' properties, care for them, and love them.. but they arnt my 'masterpiece'
then there is also the situation.. that i am very much a sadist.. so this person must accept pain as part of daily life.. and as a good thing.. i would punish through emotional means.. not through physical pain.. that would be neutral.. not reward or punishment.. simply pleasuring their Owner.
-sits back down and thinks-
