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TO START THIS OUT I BEFRIENDED A MAN IN HERE THAT I KNEW WAS MARRIED... MY BAD I GUESS .. WE GOT FU MARRIED..SEC MISTAKE... I THOUGHT WE WAS GOING TO FRIENDS ONLY.. CAUSE HE IS MARRIED.. AS TIME WENT ON I WAS GROWING CLOSER TO A MAN WHO HAS A WIFE ... BAD ..BAD IDEA...I SAID TO MYSELF  DONT I DESERVE MORE... I GOT TIRED OF HEARING HOW HE WAS ON HIS WAY HOME TO HER,,TIRED OF HEARING HOW MUCH HE WAS BEGGING HER TO SLEEP WITH HIM,,ETC ETC THE NORM HE IS MARRIED JERSEY YOU HAVE NO RITE TO BE UPSET ... WELL RECENTLY I FOUND SOMEONE WHO CAN TALK TO ME ON DAILY BASIS AND ISNT MARRIED... I FEEL ALIVE AGAIN FOR THE FIRST TIME AFTER JUST LOOSING MY MOM... HE MAKES ME FEEL LIKE I AM SPECIAL.. I WANT EVERYONE TO KNOW I AM NOT A MEAN PERSON FOR LETTING SAY GO ... I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY..AND IM SORRY I HURT HIM..I WISH HIM THE BEST.. SO WHY DOES ALL THIS MAKE ME FEEL BAD??? I AM TRUELY FINALLY HAPPY WITH DUSTY.... AND ITS BEEN 8 YRS SINCE IV LET SOMEONE LOVE ME..SHOULDNT I BE HAPPY??