LIKE ASTAR4 EVA I SHINE's blog: "wats on my mind"

WHO ARE YOU TO JUDGE ME FOR MISTAKES MADE IN MY PAST TO PUT ME DOWN FOR YOUR OWN PLEASURE & WHEN I CRY ALL YOU DO IS LAUGH THE WORD LOVE AND ALL THE EFFORT PUT INTO IT YOU JUST LOOK FOR THINGS TO THROW IT AWAY WHY DONT YOU JUST SAY IT TO MY FACE INSTEAD OF EASILY RUNNING AWAY A LIFE CAME ALONG AS WE BOTH KNOW IT WASNT ASKED FOR NOR WAS IT EXPECTED BUT IT SHOULD BE TAKEN AS BLESSING NOT JUST A PROBLEM NEGLECTED AS I LOOK IN THE MIRROR I CRY AT WHAT I SEE ALL CONFIDENCE LOST NOT KNOWING WHAT I WANT TO BE AND AS YOU STEADILY TEAR ME DOWN MY LOVE FOR YOU STAYS STRONGER THEN EVER TOO MUCH PRIDE TO SHOW A FROWN STILL ALLOWING YOU TO THINK YOU SO SLICK, SO CLEVER AND AS THE NIGHT FALLS I LET GO ALL MY FEARS MY PRIDE HITS THE FLOOR AND MY FAKE SMILE TURNS TO TEARS AS I SIT ON THE GROUND AND THROW EVERYTHING AWAY IM SAYING IT JUST TO HURT YOU TO LET YOU KNOW YOU MADE ME FEEL THIS WAY SO HOW DID IT FEEL WHEN THAT RAN THROUGH YOU HEAD NOW YOU NOE WHAT I GO THROUGH ALL MY FEELINGS JUST SAID LETTING YOU HAVE THE LIFE YOU WANTED IM GIVING A LIFE AWAY I SAY EVERYTHING WITH MEANING IM NOT SAYING GOODBYE, MORE LIKE PUSHING YOU AWAY AND WHEN THE DAY COMES THAT WE BARLEY KNOW EACHOTHER ILL THINK ABOUT WHAT MADE ME HAPPY BEFORE WE WERE TOGETHER

There's something stirring within me Like the aquatic waves during a winter's storm Something so irresistible and addicting in between a dream and reality I am torn You say you care and you have mad respect That the vibe between us is like no other Then please tell me why your actions prove different and tell me when "Lies" and "Deceit" became characteristics of a lover My feelings for you are genuine and true just as the sun rises and sets in the day and evening and the land and sky meet All I am is honest with you With your feelings do not be discreet Patience is a virtue and I must say I display it well When will we be on the same page of love? I guess time will have to tell All I ask is for your honesty Look me in the eye and express the truth Do you get butterflies in your stomach and for a quick moment regress back to your youth? My emotions feel like they have gone to waste and have been disregarded I am deserving of more than that I am unique and very much warm hearted Do you not see my potential qualities ? Or is it you block them out intentionally I wish you would accept me with open arms and see that the most realist you will get is right here with me What do I have to do to get you to understand me? What do I have to do to get you to see the real me ?? Maybe if you open your mind and heart wider those vibes you constantly speak on will help lead you to me. Time is of the essence each minute a severe action of your reaction Being consistent with true feelings wishing you would embrace the moment of truth and hear the expression I am bearing Do you get my drift now? Can you taste the hunger of my reality? Can you feel my emotional presence so strong ?? Then let your words be followed by actions of truth Then let your time be shared with a warm soul Then let yourself be honest within your own heart and let what is destined to happen, happen with no holds bard.