I was violated one night 19 years ago,
And once again so much so as recently that I know.
As he went deeper and deeper inside,
With all that I had, I prayed he'd stop
and God be by my side.
As I laid there with silent screams,
To this day I have the nightmares that torture me.
I resisted without words by moving away,
He took it as if it were a sign of "OK".
He tried to continue as I laid there,
While deep inside I cried take me away from here.
After it was over, he begged again
to go to that forbidden place,
I felt the rush of blood and tears flow down my face.
I bled like once before, and yet it
seemed like more-
I felt violated was written all over
my face, and all I wanted was to find
the closest door.
Today this feeling of being violated
rings in my head,
I feel like another piece of me
has been paralyzed and
feeling of being dead.
All I wanted to hear was one person's voice,
and have his love and his arms hold me;
He was in the distance and far from my reach.
My fears and anger took over,
and once again all I wanted was to feel
him near and got the voice of another.
I was held by someone near...
But it wasn't the same when it came
to me sharing my demons and fears.
Happened recently again on 02/24/07
Written about it on 03/03/07
