Papa Bear's blog: "Updates"

It seems as of recently that I'm "that guy" The guy my female friends like to confide in to tell me all the wonderful things that have been happening to them. One's getting married another just got two jobs ..one has a reunion after a long layoff with their significant other. Mind you these are people who I wouldn't consider myself to be on their short list of friends ..hell to be honest we rarely talk. So why am I the recipient of this news? Or is it that in their overwhelming jubilation they are just seeking out anyone who will listen ? Or maybe they just sense my lackluster existence and want to rub it in my face. (my pessimist talking). I just don't know.

I feel how this site is so aptly named. I african-americaned out last night. First time it's ever happened to me. Drinks at the club are ridiculously pricey so we (my boy's and I) drank before we went. I was drinking Jack Daniels I will venture to say over half the bottle with a 60:40 ratio Jack to coke. Once inside I bought a round of drinks and got a double shot of Jager. Not a wise decision on my part. I vaguely remember dancing and the rest of the tale is what my boy's have told me . I believe them for the most part except the part where they said I fucked some chick and danced with a tranny (i avoided eye contact with that beast at all cost). What happened the 2.5 hours at the club I don't know. I do remember leaving because some drunk bitch told me I was drunk. I nearly fell down the stairs. I thought I was driven straight home but apparently we went to Denny's and I was so fucked up they said I opted to stay in the car. They made attempts to revive me but to no avail. I was also talkin shit to my boy about him not being able to handle his liquor (the week before he didn't even get out the car when we went to the club and threw up like a little pussy) I hung on to my manhood I haven't puked but my stomach still isn't right. I want to but I'm hanging on to my manhood. I guess I was also hugging my boy from the backseat wtf? (they took pictures) Fortunately I didn't wake up with anything written on my face. I thought I walked inside my place under my own power. Not the case they followed me in and I damned near broke my bed. I have been incoherent most of the day and in few short hours we are going to do it again . This is what it is to be 22. I don't know if I can drink however not unless my stomach feels better. I'll update you again after tonight ..Hopefully I can remember what happens.

Changing the name . Last night got involved in a MuMM that spun out of control. Long story short Some woman have nothing clever to add to the discussion, out of nowhere starts accusing me of being gay .Now I'm confident of who I am and what I represent and to set the record straight this was a false accusation borne out of pure lack of wit. I'm definitely not gay lmao but this little stunt they pulled has garnered me some unwanted attention from the homosexual community and my former name ..Lil Bear is some twisted gay term I've heard. So in an effort to supress this attention I'm doing away with the name.