Well right now im sitting waiting for the phone call that will tell me one of my very best friends i grew up with since day one, and someone i hold dear to me as more than a sister has passed away tonight. Its been about a month and a half since mom passed and i've pretty much taken on the role of cook/maid around the house since i have time now. Currently lookin for a job, cant get anything, and the bills are stacking higher.
I tend to have breakdowns alot periodicly due to the pts (post tramatic stress disorder) that i was diagnosed with two years into caring for mom.
I've gotten pretty good at convincing myself she hasnt actualy passed and just isnt around anymore, people cope a lil differently i spose. I've recently become very self destructive, phsycotic with pulling hair out and trying to knock myself out and often cant tell when one of those episodes will hit so not trusted alone a good amount of the time.
I split from my relationship the day after moms funeral (not by choice) and been trying to find a way to find my way back to sanity and happyness lately. The hunt isnt going the greatest with recent events, But life is mostly good with great people around me if you dont count the emotional state i stay in and the thoughts that constantly dwell in my mind.
But thats my update...
