Hi All!
Today marks a whole month of pain and complete exhaustion. I'm not going to turn this into a pity blog. I just want to share what is on my mind.
At this point, I'm worried sick. My symptoms could be caused by any number of things...including a bleeding growth, screwed up hormones, or even the c-word. My body is so worn out from the physical symptoms that it is causing mental exhaustion too. I'm trying my best to keep my chin up and think positively, but it is getting pretty rough to do.
I am a DES baby. I'm not sure what it stands for, but it was a drug given to pregnant women who had a history of miscarriages. It was supposed to help the mother carry her baby to term. My mother had 3 miscarriages before becoming pregnant with me, so they gave her this DES drug for 3 months. I was born one month early. DES was banned in the US by the FDA one month after I was born. It was found to cause major damage to the reproductive organs of the fetus in utero...male and female. It can also cause second generation damage......meaning if the DES baby has a child, that child can be affected too. So, this could be the cause of my problems. I don't know yet.
The doctor's appointment is on Monday. I have already called several times to see if I could get in sooner, but they have been booked solid for the last 4 weeks. If you are the praying type, could you please say a little prayer for me? It would be the best thing you can do to help.
As always, I love you all!
xoxo
Laurie
P.S. If you or anyone you know is a DES mother or baby, please contact me. I'd love to hear from you!
