arrg! I am so mad at my parents i just wanna rip my hair out. I got my Housing and Residence application in the mail today from Western Kentucky University and when i went up to them and told them that i needed $150 dollars before march 31st . Mom went off saying " and are you gonna get this back if you don't go to college? i don't see how you're gonna come up with the money by september. They aint gonna let you in if you cant pay for it!" And then her and daddy went on how I should stay in Arkansas and how this school or that school was really good. They went off asking about how Jason is gonna take care of me cause they cant. Has it ever occured to them that maybe i can take care of myself? Do they think I havent thought out the cost? I've already planned it out. I can't believe they would act so negative about it. Im the first to go to college in our family. I've work hard to get my GPA up above a 3.0, Im taking the ACT 2 more times to get that score up from a 22. Would they rather me stay in Arkansas, go to a college i dun want to go to, be unhappy, drop out and end up flipping burgers the rest of my natural life? I love my family and all but can't they be proud that Im actually making an effort to improve my life? I think I chose the college best suited for me. I'll be just a few minutes from people I know and I'll be out of Arkansas for a while. I need to get out of this state. I wont say I'll not miss it, But I want to go somewhere else for a while. I want to my own place in life and I need to get away for a while. I love Jason with all my heart, and i feel like hes the one for me. But he's not the only reason for me leaving Arkansas behind. I want my parents to accept my choices in life and acctually support them for once instead of making me feel like im not gonna achieve anything unless Im with in walking distance of them. Why can't they be proud of me for once instead of dragging me down to that dreams never come true all because you weren't born with a silver spoon in your mouth.
