Ford's blog: "Understanding Me"

<C>From another site, from somebody on my friends' list.. I just wanted to share...

What it says...

Jack - What do you think of incest?

Her - It's distgusting

Jack - I see. Is there any other info you want to know of me?

Her - Nope, not so much

Jack - We still could've been friends. I just asked. I didn't mean you. I'm into it, but fine, too bad. Bye

Her - That's gross, dude. Seriously, you fuck your sister, then? Fucking distgusting! No wonder people block you cuz you're fucked in the head.

Naturally, I cleaned up what it says with some proper spelling and punctuation.. but hell, I ain't perfect, either...

now..

WHO YO' BRUDDAH!!!!

Well, I guess I just might as well give an update..

This crap's killing me, inside and out..

Cleaned the ex's place out today of stuff the children wanted to keep. The ex's mom was there as well. She told me some disturbing news. That whole side of the family knew of the boyfriend's sexual problem with kids... for three years.. THREE years.. and nobody felt fit to tell me.  I knew he couldn't see  his own daughters in Texas.. now I know why.

The letter she sent was stamped at Ft. Lauderdale, Florida. Some BS about how she's always hurting the kids and if what she's done makes us think she's a selfish bitch, then she is one. She also stated she's not coming back.

They had left everything there. I mean, every-damn-thing. All of the children's' things as well as anything the kids made for her, and all of the kids' pictures, X-Mas stuff specially for or of them.. the works.. Not one single reminder went. The kids were quite hurt. My daughter cried for over 30 minutes. My son just got mad, but was mellowed after a couple of minutes. Refused to even take most of his toys from her place. Still did grab quite a bit, though. My daughter grabbed many of the more emotional tying stuff...My living room, kitchen and stairway are packed with bags and furniture..Last thing I wanted was to incorporate her crap with mine, but I do so for the kids..

CPS informed me that I still need to show for court, due to them not wanting her to show up out of the blue saying she still had joint custody. Also, it seems that they left NY the same day they were served the court papers. October 18th. Also mentioned that it was for the best because child molestion cases are so incredibly hard to prove and my daughter would have to go through the courts and all of that pain. I had agreed with that.

Anyway, It's trick or treat night tonight and got crap to do, so I'm off..

I haven't told my children.. I don't know what to say to them.

My heart's breaking into a million tiny shards because I know how it's going to hurt them..

I've tried, truly tried, above my duty, to make sure that they had some influence and time with their mother, good and bad. Tried to explain that she is the way she is, and only she can change that.  For more than 12 years I've tried. That's a long time. Feels like an eternity for me. Now it's over. I had filed for custody again, with assistance from Child Protective's urging. Court is on November 5th. Such a moot point now. I would've let her have supervised visits, for the kids. Only for the kids' sake. I was doing what's best for them, at this point in time. This turning point.

Everything's messed up...

This was the second child molester she had in her home around the kids. The first, nobody knew, not even her. She still wrote him in prison after the fact, but eventually told him to get lost.  The guy she's with now had touched my kid. I lost it, but I forced myself to go about it legally, thinking all the time of the children and what would happen if I had done something stupid, like murdering the bastard. Believe me when I tell you I've obsessed about it. Every day, every night and even in my dreams. Then, I had found out, just a few short weeks ago, that this is not the second man, but the third. This one had actually gone all the way with the eldest child. My kids' older sister, who's fathered by another man. Her mother called her a liar, just as my ex's mother did to her about her grandfather.

Still, I've tried to do what was right.. To see the kids smile.. While trying my damnedest to protect them, working within the laws of this god forsaken state.

Now everything's even more messed up..

Just a few short hours ago, my own mother had contacted me. The ex's mother had contacted her with some very disturbing news. The ex decided to stay in a relationship with this man. Not only that, but they fled state to avoid persecution. As usual, with most criminals, that state is Florida.  She had contacted her own mother after they had settled there, to let her know that she's abandoning the children.

My family and I are to go to the ex's home and get whatever was left there, for the kids. Furniture, toys and the like. We'll be doing it on Saturday. With some luck, my truck will be raring to go that day, as well.

I had told the kids that we'll be going to do this, but not as to why. They came at me with replies such as, "Mommy is leaving James!," and "Can Mommy stay with us until she gets a place?" The worst was my son saying he was excited about finally getting his birthday gifts from his mother. He's been waiting so long. It's not the gifts so much as it was because they were from her. His birthday was in May. Last they saw of their mother, two weeks ago, she had showed him pictures of the gifts waiting for him, but didn't bring them that one weekend. I don't know why she didn't, but I thought it was a bit cruel.

It killed me that I couldn't say the why of the situation. Not until tomorrow.

It's killing me now, because I know how they'll take it..

I feel like hell...

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From Tutti... to all of you!..

Enjoy and peace out!!

Anyone else having the shits with Google Chrome? I've uninstalled and reinstalled it several times, did two system restores, wiping out half my programs, as well.. Updated every damn thing, too.. All I get is a plain white page and the waiting icon stays going until the pop up comes forth with "kill Page' or "Wait".... but kill the page doesn't working.. click after click..

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Why does everything happen in threes, dammit...?

First off, about a month ago.. My truck went down... then the dryer quit.. and then the toilet... All in the same week...

First off, the truck.. it's the lock cylinder and key.. so I replaced it.. but the old one did something to the battery.. replaced that, as well... Started the truck up and the clutch slammed to the floor.. Out of fluid and had to bleed the fucker..

The dryer.. stopped spinning but gave out heat..possible plugging, like last time..it was plugged, but not spinning again... checked the belt and it was busted.. replaced it.. Still didn't spin.. Have to buy a new dryer..

Now, my favorite.. the shitter... First, the wax seal cuz the thing was leaking.. All the sudden the pump's not working properly.. Fixed the hosing.. and then the pump decides to quit and quirt water all over..Working on replacing the pump tomorrow..

THREE things, THREE problems apiece..

Somebody upstairs is fucking with me and i wish She'd knock it the fuck off..

Chick or Dude? YOU be the Judge..

I hate the secret admirer game on ANY site.. this stuff's just scary...