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till i move to ASU BEEBE!!! im startn EMT school on monday. so im ready for that!! umm got my fridge today so im gettn it cold so it will be somewhat ready. Im kinda scared cause i dont know a single person on this campus but...hell it will be a great new start. At the end of the semister i will be at a cross roads...my parents arent gonna help me pay for Paramedic next year and just the books and other uniform stuff put my broke ass down to 20 bucks to my name..whats new there. So anyways i can either stop my edumation on start workn as a EMT and do Paramedic later...or stay in school and be broke ass. Any ambulance service here will pay you to do Paramedic with them but...you gotta agree to work for so many years and its only like 12 weeks were as at this school its a year long..but you gotta pay and do some extra classes...so i guess ill figure that out when i get there. so anyways i guess im just excited that i get to move out Saturday and start my path on to a good carrer with something i love to do...so YAAAY!!!

till i move out...thank god. everyone was gone this week yet the still gave me hell. called my phone almost none stop. i went thursday to hot springs to find hells half acre and visited a body musem. which was sweet. Anyways i stayed at my friends place there, thanks if your reading this, they called friday and gave me hell, then called back saying they were sorry....so fuck...anyways i got home and they started jumping down my throat..and were like why are you so angry? Fortuanely my older sister was there and cut them off saying they needed to stop raming down my throat...so im glad she was there... so all in all things arent that great but i only got to make it 2 more weeks. so how are yall

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hows every doin? been crazy here. i had some stuff to deal with that got me down but now im back in the saddle so to speak. ummm...im starting EMT school august 25th..after that im doing Paramedic school. i eventually wanna get on a fire department...ummm lets see thats about it..gone again this weekend to greers ferry lake for another water rescue training..come see us if you live in AR..sooo i guess thats it for now...take care everyone

i should be happy right? i mean 4 long years are coming to a close. well im not. i am so sacred. the last few nights have been absolutely terrible. all the stress and anxiety of the tests, letting a lot of people down if i fail. and not to metion WHERE THE HELL am i going? i mean i know what i want to do-be a firefighter. the pays not great starting off but firefighter all have second jobs. i am more than ready to move out. i tryn to find some inexpensive apartment somewhere... fuck this sucks. stess is litteraly maken me crazy... it sucks lookn back high school sucked. i did make some ver great friends-you know who you are and i feel there is no way i can ever repay yall- ESAR has been a huge part of my life and will always be. i have nothing but good memories. anway when i finish this week ill post more oh yea IRON FUCKN MAIDEN may 21. its gonna be hellacious on me cause i gotta leave late cause of BS school. then make it back thursday for some BS graduation shit. oh well its gonna make on helluva story one day

my dog died a little while ago. she was my favorite camping partner, never complained on the hike, the weather. and always eatn my food even if i wasnt finished. the family had gone to wal mart. i was about to mow the yard. found her lying peacfully. never heard her cry. she was was the runt of the litter, she was a fighter. never afraid of anything.

at dinner. i went with 2 friends to a pizza place for dinner. i was of course in usual attire, ripped jeans, slayer t shirt and chain wallet. the other two were dressed up. we sit down and the waitress immediatly saus wicked shirt followed by "dont i know you". we talk a little then she takes our drink orders, the other two reply cokes. i jokeingly ask whats on draft. she tells me and i ask for Bud light. she then asks my age, i say 21. she then asks my real age, i say 19 i mean 21. she says ok. the other two look at me in anstonishment. she brings us our orders. we eat, talk a little more. after ordimg my 3rd beer and asking for the ticket. we get it. there was the pizza and their cokes on it. no beer charged. we pay, and hang around as we arent finished with the drinks yet. she gets off work and sits next to me. we talk about music and other stuff. shes pretty cool. so i ask what days she works. she tells me that we should hang out sometime. so i get her number. what an awesome night.

Explorer Search And Rescue, crew 393. its a youth oriented Search And Rescue crew. most crews are adults. our crew is 15 yrs old, and is the only ground SAR crew in Arkansas up to the national standard. other SAR Dogs teams are but we are a little differnt. There are several teams that hate us because we are young and better trained. they constantly call us "kids", nothing pisses us off more than that. however there is a dog team that is one of the best in AR that will almost refuse a search if we arent there. They respect us, and we respect everyone else. Our team has the most SARTECH 1s-the highest level of SAR training. Being one-if not the-best team in AR, we are constantly being called out. which is always good. i absoultely love what i do in ESAR. Most of the seaches we go on end well. However, due to the very nature of it, some dont. Those that dont make the good ones that much better. i will admit it can be hard on one both physically and mentally. The mental is hard to overcome, but its worth it, ever cut from thorns, every blister, all of it, i wouldnt give it up for all the money in the world.

ill get one up here in the next day or two. it takes me forever to convert the shit from webcam to jpeg. anyways most of yall will get a kick out of em. heres what we wear. Kakhi pants, dress shoes, button down white shirt, and the senior tie. every senior wears the exact same shit. same for the entire school, only the lower classes cant wear white shirts. we gotta shave-no facial hair-and our hair has to be kept pretty short. so im growing mine out since im almost out. there is no stipulations on undershirts so of course i wear my colors proudly. usually one of my many black shirts, so you can read the band thru the white one- i wear my colors proudly! so anways be watchn here in the next day or two for them.

this prick teacher at school took my cell phone while i was playing basketball. now we wear dress clothes cause it a traditon, ties kakhi pants and all. so those of us playing took our shirts off, its hot, then took wallets and phones out. i put my phone in my shirt so you couldnt see it. everyone else had their phone in sight. well this prick skips everyone elses shit, goes thu my wallet, flips it across the room, then goes thru my shirt to get my phone, all while i watched him!! then the prick told the principle he "found" it. i was livid. i called him out on it but of course the principle belevies him. so my parents have to schedule and appoitment with the principle to get it back, the phone i FUCKN pay for, not them. and they are telln me they dont want me to get, i pay for the mother fucker. god im so fuckn pissed