that nuzzle hussy's blog: "uhmmm... emmaface??"

I never want to have another day like today. =/

"When a GIRL is quiet ... millions of things are running in her mind. When a GIRL is not arguing ... she is thinking deeply. When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions ... she is wondering how long you will be around. When a GIRL answers " I'm fine " after a few seconds ... she is not at all fine. When a GIRL stares at you ... she is wondering why you are lying. When a GIRL lays on your chest ... she is wishing for you to be hers forever. When a GIRL wants to see you everyday... she wants to be pampered. When a GIRL says " I love you " ... she means it. When a GIRL says " I miss you " ... no one in this world can miss you more than that." Okay... When Emma is quiet.... she is choosing her words carefully. When Emma is not arguing anymore... she realizes she was wrong. And will soon be apologzing. When Emma looks at you with eyes full of question... she just wants answers. When Emma answers with "I'm fine" after a few seconds... she isn't. And if she changes the subject its because she doesn't want to talk to you about it. And if she does decide she wants to talk to you... she just needs you to listen. When Emma stares at you ... she is probably thinking about something and not realizing it. Very few exceptions. When Emma lays on your chest ... she wants you to hold her back. When Emma wants to see you every day... its because you are special and being around you makes her happy. When Emma says "I love you"... she means it in full. When Emma says "I miss you"... believe her. "Life only comes around once make sure u spend it with the right person .... Find a guy ... who calls you beautiful instead of hot. who calls you back when you hang up on him. who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the guy who ... kisses your forehead. Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats. Who holds your hand in front of his friends. Who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you. Who turns to his friends and says, " That's her!! "" Don't get caught up in looking for the right person. You are going to go thru boys and girls. You are stuck with you. Better make sure you spend time making yourself feel good instead of finding someone else to do it for you. Find a guy that calls you beautiful? Pet names are pet names. Everyone has their own version of them. But don't pass it up when you meet the person who honestly makes you feel beautiful. Who calls you back when you hang up on them? Fuck that. If I hang up on you it is for a reason. You let me calm down and I will get back to you when I think I can handle it. Thats what it is. Calling back will only make it worse. So, find a guy who knows when you need to be left alone for a second. And is secure in the believe that you WILL call him back. And then apologize for letting your emotions get in the way. I don't want someone to stay awake and watch me sleep. I want someone who is going to sleep with me. And feel better when I am there sleeping next to him. Knowing that its mutual. Kisses on the forehead are great. I can't even say anything on that. "Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats. Who holds your hand in front of his friends. " That really is the winner. Who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you? I don't need constant reminders, nor would I ever expexct someone to be CONSTANTLY reminding me. Everyone has their insecurities. But if yours are so low that you need the constant reminded... then you need to work onyourself before you can get into a relationship. Its nice to be told those things in moderation. They say them too much then it doesn't mean as much when you are told. And anyway... actions ALWAYS speak louder than words. Thats what it is.

have never been so tired of drama in my life. I'm back at my moms house... PHYSICALLY AWAY from everything and the drama just keeps finding me. I swear right now if its not one thing than it is something else. Am flat out, I am tired of it. Everyone needs to calm down, cause I'm really starting to get mad... and I'm not trying to lose the people I do care about over corny shit. The following list is not for everyone. Really... each one is for someone else (two of them are for the same person) You really should know which one is for you.... if they don't apply to you then your cool. If you think it does apply to you... it probably does. But really... this is just some shit that needs to be said cause I'm tired of all of it. Stop talking crazy... I'm tired of hearing the bullshit lies that everyone feels the need to spread. Seriously... keep my damn name out of your punk ass mouth. Stop flipping on me over stupid shit... its uncalled for. I'm grown. You are grown. Act like it or don't expect me to. There is NO reason AT ALL to act like you don't have any sense and freak out on me instead of talking to me like I'm a human being. Cause unless you have lost the ability to communicate then there is no reason for it. Stop trying to play me like I'm not the same person... just because I speak on things that piss me off doesn't mean I'm a different person it just means I FINALLY decided to take control over things that effect me. Stop lying... I'm not a dumb girl and I realize a lie when I hear one. Stop putting all of the blame on me... we all know in ANY given relationship (i.e. dating, friendship, family...) work both ways. If something isn't right its not based on one side. Relationships go threw changes, you adapt or you don't. Its NEVER one sided when a relationship fails. EVER. Stop acting like when things happen you didn't see it coming... NOTHING just happens. There is ALWAYS signs. Open your God given eyes and observe your surroundings. Things will stop coming as such a surprise. Stop playing the victim card.... you are not the victim if you CHOOSE to let this shit happen to you. If you stand idle watching your life fall apart than that is on you. Don't cry about it acting like you had no control over it. There are VERY few things in life that you have ABSOLUTELY no control over. Again... you are grown so stop crying like a child. Stop passing judgments on me... You have no room to speak on me. I don't know you all like that. You don't know me all like that... so where do you think you have the room to judge me? You make mistakes. You fuck up. And until you are COMPLETELY sin free and can call yourself a fucking saint... DON'T judge me and don't pretend then you are better than me... cause you aren't. Who are you? Yeah. No body important if all you can do is sit there and nit pick (and for real not even say shit to my face.) Stop opening your legs to every guy you meet... seriously girl, I just feel sorry for you. Stop talking out the side of your neck... I thought it was funny at first when people would talk shit over the phone and they hush up in my face, but now its just irritating. What happened to all that you were saying before? Yeah... I got you though. I've taken the reigns over in my life... do the same for yourself.

I'm terribly bored, so making a blog seemed like the right thing to do. Even thought I have nothing to update on. O.o But uhm... my birthday is in 20 days?! =]

Rihanna Hate That I Love You Lyrics Featuring: Ne-Yo Lyrics [Rihanna:] Thats how much as I love you Thats how much as I need you And I cant stand you Must everything you do make me wanna smile Can I not like you for awhile? (No....) [Ne-Yo:] You wont let me You upset me girl And then you kiss my lips All of a sudden I forgive (that I was upset) Can't remember what you did [Rihanna:] But I hate... You know exactly what to do So that I cant stay mad at you For too long thats wrong [Ne-Yo:] But I hate... You know exactly how to touch So that I dont want to fuss.. and fight no more Said I despise that i adore you [Rihanna:] And i hate how much i love you boy (yeah...) I cant stand how much I need you (I need you...) And I hate how much I love you boy (oooh whoa..) But I just cant let you go And I hate that I love you so (oooh..) [Ne-Yo:] You completely know the power that you have The only one makes me laugh [Rihanna:] Said its not fair How you take advantage of the fact That I..will be under reason why And it just aint right [Ne-Yo:] And I hate how much I love you girl I cant stand how much I need you (yeah..) And I hate how much I love you girl But I just cant let you go But I hate that I love you so [Both:] One of these days maybe your magic wont affect me And your kiss wont make me weak But no one in this world knows me the way you know me So you'll probably always have a spell on me... [Ne-Yo:] Yeaahhh... Oohh... [Rihanna:] Thats how much i love you (as much as I need you) Thats how much as I need you (oooh..) Thats how much I love you (oh..) Thats how much as I need you [Rihanna:] And I hate that i love you soooo And I hate how much i love you boy I cant stand how much I need ya (cant stand how much I need you) And I hate how much I love you boy But I just cant let you go (but I just cant let you go no..) And I hate that I love you so And I hate that I love you so.. soo.....

Once more I'll say goodbye to you Things happen, but we don't really know why if it's supposed to be like this why do most of us ignore the chance to miss oh yeah torn apart of the seams of my dreams turn to tears I'm not feeling this situation Run away try to find THAT safe place you can hide It's the best place to be when you're feeling like Me! (Me) Yeah! (Yeah) All these things I hate revolve around Me! (Me) Yeah! (Yeah) Just back off before i snap Once more you tell those lies to me Why can't you just be straight up with honesty (honesty) When you say those things in my ear Why do you always tell me what you wanna hear (wana hear) oh yeah (yeah!) Wear your heart on your sleeve make things hard to believe I'm not feeling this situation Run away try to find that safe place you can hide It's the best place to be when you're feeling like Me! (Me) Yeah! (Yeah) All these things I hate revolve around me (Me) Yeah! (Yeah) Just back off before I snap and you'll see! (me) Me! (Me) All these things I hate revolve around me (Me) Yeah! (Yeah) Just back off before I snap Torn apart of the seams of my dreams turn to tears I'm not feeling this situation Run away try to find that safe place you can hide It's the best place to be when you're feeling like me (it's the best place to be when you're!) Me! (Me) Yeah! (Yeah) All these things I hate revolve around me (Me) Yeah! (Yeah) Just back off before I snap and you'll see (Me) Me! (Me) All these things I hate revolve around me (Me) Yeah! (Yeah) Just back off before I snap

Superchick - One And Lonely It's not like they meant to hurt me Watchin TV, checkin Britney, televised, my guys Checkin out her thighs and I roll my eyes and sigh It's not like I even need to be competing with unreality TV, fantasy Not for a smart girl like me Some days it's hard to be a one girl revolution CHORUS: Sometimes I have good days and it's good to be me Sometimes I get the best of insecurity And it's quite alright to be the one and only But today I feel like the one and lonely It's not that I don't know beauty is only skin deep Just the skin I'm in, not the girl within But one imperfection takes away my grin Not that I think I'm ugly but Acne throws me for a backslide I won't go outside Makeup can't hide how I feel inside Some days it's hard to be a one girl revolution CHORUS (Oh, the one and lonely) We all have bad hair days Those nothing good about me days Just keep moving on 'cause they'll be gone And we'll still be here going on We have our yesterdays No lunch 'cause the jeans don't fit days Just keep moving on 'cause they'll be gone And we'll still be here going on CHORUS: Sometimes I have bad days and it's hard to be me Sometimes I get brought down by insecurity And I have my days where I'm the one and lonely But today I choose to be the one and only Yea, I'm the one and only

Do you remember the person you first kissed? yes
Have you ever kissed someone you weren't dating? yes
Ever kissed an ex after you broke up? yes
Ever kissed anyone on your top friends? ...
Kissed someone with a gf or bf? wasnt my fault
Ever kissed someone younger than you? nope
Older than you? yes
Have you ever kissed someone you didn't like? nope
Ever madeout with someone who was a really bad kisser? sadly

Kissed or Been Kissed YES or NO

On the cheek yes
On the forehead yes
On the nose yes
On the lips yes
With tongue yes
In the park yes
In public yes
In a car yes
While driving in the back seat yes
In the movies yes
On a bench yes
Upside down yes
Sitting on their lap yes
Laying down yes
In broad daylight yes
At a fair yes
At night yes
In the rain nope!
All of the above nope

Your LAST kiss

The last time you kissed someone? its been uhm
Was it a game? (truth or dare, spin the bottle?) nope
Was this person older than you? mhm
Was it a friend? mhm
Do you regret this kiss? kinda

Madonna =b (spoken) Girls can wear jeans And cut their hair short Wear shirts and boots cause its ok to be a boy But for a boy to look like a girl is degrading cause you think that being a girl is degrading But secretly youd love to know what its like Wouldnt you What it feels like for a girl Silky smooth Lips as sweet as candy, baby Tight blue jeans Skin that shows in patches Strong inside but you dont know it Good little girls they never show it When you open up your mouth to speak Could you be a little weak Chorus: Do you know what it feels like for a girl Do you know what it feels like in this world For a girl Hair that twirls on finger tips so gently, baby Hands that rest on jutting hips repenting Hurt thats not supposed to show And tears that fall when no one knows When youre trying hard to be your best Could you be a little less (chorus) (chorus, prefixing 3rd line with what it feels like) Strong inside but you dont know it Good little girls they never show it When you open up your mouth to speak Could you be a little weak (chorus, repeat) In this world Do you know Do you know Do you know what it feels like for a girl What it feels like in this world

Incase anyone was wondering about my last real-ish update. ...Most of the things that were bugging me them are still bugging me right now. Today I'm doing a better job of ignoring it. And yesterday I was able to as well. Bleh.