Turn me on Part 2
Turn Me On Again
In the aftermath of my blog "Turn Me On" it seems that all I get now are replies and lil inuendos indicating that someone is not my 'type' simply because they are not a BHM ( term coined by a friend of mine meaning bald headed man). This is simply not true. What this tells me is that while I received many comments, posting, and messages in regards to this blog entry, that the entire concept was not grapsed. Perhaps a reiteration is in order. Not of the physical attributes, because I am thinking those are etched in the mind of all who read, or all who have talked about my blog since then, but of the emotional and more stable qualities that really turn me on and keep me. While it is true that physical qualities are what attracts me to someone, it does not limit only that certain class of people to those I find attractive. I find men of all hair styles( well I am thinking the afro wearing mullet hugging jerry curl dripping comb over maybe out) goatee wearing or not, with or without the tummy hair attractive. Face it ( no pun intended) the physical beauty will one day diminish and it is the inner quailites that are left. So this is where I am either sold or I walk away to do my shopping elsewhere. Because you can be the most handsome, shaven head, goatee wearing, edible tummy hair tuggin man in the universe and be an ASSHOLE. So listen up, get out your reading glasses, put your contacts in, get your coffee, here we go........
A sense of humor is a must. I enjoy laughing and I laugh at sometimes the most bizarre things. I have been told I have a somewhat demented and morbid sense of humor, but that is me and at times the truth is actually funnier than anything one can make up. the man in my life must enjoy laughing and have a sense of humor.. He must be compassionate. Not a cry baby, but someone who knows how to express himself and to let me into his world, to let me know how he feels and for him to make sure I know how he feels for me. I do not want a WAM ( term coined by a good friend of mine meaning Weak Assed Man). I want someone who is strong, this does not mean physically strong , but mentally and emotionally; someone who will be able to handle what is going on in my life and not run at the first sign of complications or sickness. My life is not a bed of roses and there are days that are hard for me to handle. There are days I hurt where I do not want to get out of bed, but I do and it would be nice to have someone there to help me through , not yell and curse and belittle me. I want a good role model. I have two sons( only one lives iwth me) and they need someone who will be there for them and who can show them how to be a man, and do things that a Mom just doesnt know how to do. Sure I have taught them how to spit, to throw a football, a baseball, to ride a quad and a bike and I can even pee standing up if the need arises( thank you Uncle Sam) but I dont know how to be man or how to think like a man. Lord knows if I did I would be rich and selling secrets left and right and Oprah would be booking me for her next show, and that is not happening.
I want someone who will be there through the good times and the bad. Not run away when times get rough. Someone who is willing to stay for the long haul and fight for what he thinks we have and for what he wants, not just jump ship when things get tough. A man with honesty and integrity. Someone who can tell me what he wants and how he wants it. If something is bothering him he doesn't cower away or run off, we sit down and discuss it, we work it out. We never go to bed mad. I want someone who will be there in the morning when my hair is all a mess and I have morning breath to tell me I am beautiful; Because to him I am. I want someone who enjoys coming home from work, not because he is off work, but because I am there waiting for him and he could not get home fast enough to see me. Someone to take me in his arms and just hold me because he missed the way I smell, or the way my body feels pressing against his. The way we melt our bodies into one. I want someone who calls me during the day just to hear my voice because he misses the sound of it and just wanted to let me know he was thinking about me. No reason, just a call. Someone who doesnt have to ask me what I like to eat; he knows. He knows that the double cheeseburger I get from McDonalds is cheese only and not to get the rest of the stuff on it, just because he has paid attention to me. He knows that I have never received flowers in my life unless they were not from my son or my mother or unless I was in the hospital and if he did send them he knows that purple roses and white lillies are my favorite. He knows my favorite color and doesn't have to ask. He knows these things because he has taken the time to get to know me, because he cares, and it is something he wants to do. Someone who realizes that I have a brain, and a level of confidence about me and I will not hide or cower away when I am confronted with debate or discussion that I do not agree with or where I am asked to defend my views or beliefs. Someone who will support me but will also agree that it is okay to disagree.
With all this said what I basically want is this.....someone who is themself and will allow me to be myself and love me anyway, despite my flaws....someone who will catch me when I fall and take away all my insecurities.
Does this man exist...is he out there?
