People say that trust is the key to a relationship. When you give your heart, and soul to someone you have to trust them as well, and when you trust someone you give a piece of yourself to that person as well. When someone betrays that trust, that part of you that you gave them is taken, and you're left feeling shattered. When you love someone as well you give half of yourself away to that person, and except them as your other half. When your love is so deep, and that person is no longer there you realize you are no longer a whole, and feel incomplete. When you have trust in someone yet fear them leaving it hurts you so bad inside that when you are with that person you hold onto them as if it's the last time you're ever going to see them. You try and memerize every specific detail of them their touch, their smell, their smile.. everything... When their gone though the memories haunt you and twist you inside with a pain so unwielding it shatters you. You go to sleep at night and you're so use to having that person beside you, that you still reach out in the night and actually think they are there next to you, and then you realize you're alone and touching your own shadow. Then the realization hits you once again full force and you're left there laying like a broken puppet with broken strings unable to feel, move or think because alls you can do is cry, and shake from the pounding of your own heart breaking. You try and go on with your life, but the days seem meeker, the nights longer, and you're left there with only yourself, and your once happy memories. They flow through your head like an endless song that never ends, but changes with each verse, but the chorus is always the same. Confusion sets in, then you start finding faults with yourself that you don't even have, you question yourself wondering what the hell you did so wrong, even though inside you know with your heart you did nothing at all. Contemplation comes into play and you analyze every detail you can remember over and over, but still even if you get every detail you still feel something is missing, because that part of you is missing. You're left alone at the end not even able to trust yourself... Trust... So what the hell are you suppose to do after you take time, much needed time heal, and have much self reflection.... Ready to fall for someone again, and take that final jump past your stone wall you built up inside.... yet... completely scared... Wow... I just dont know.
