There are things in my life that have happened that make absolutely no sense to me. I try to figure out their meanings so I can move past them, but they just become more of an inigma and confusion to me.
I walk through life trying to realize why happiness comes and goes but it never seems to stick around for too long of a period of time. Why does happiness have to come at a price. To be happy sometimes it seems you have to give up a peice of yourself, but is that true happiness. Is it just me or does this happen to everyone?
I love to be loved, and to be able to love someone completely in return, but I wonder if my love iis never accepted fully as I give it will their love ever be real. Am I asking too much from someone when I ask them to accept me for me with all my good things and all my flaws and faults. Accept me for who I am and love me without trying to change me. Know that they can trust me and I will always stay with them even if they let go of the raeins and tell me to be free.
I find myself wondering daily will anyone truely ever accept ME? People say they do and then they want to change me and they don't just want to change my flaws. Some actually try to change aspects of me that I thought were special unique virtues in me that most people were unable to give, but maybe what I veiwed as virtues were actually not, maybe they were negative things that were only going to cause harm to the people around me, and I should learn to change them.
I am only me, but the me who I am seems to not be working anymore. I guess I will have to change me everyone around me happy. And maybe in their happiness and knowing that I was the root of it, I can finally be happy.
My life will never be the same again, because who I am will never be the same again. I will walk this world as everybody needs to see me so I can be loved the way they want to love me.
THIS IS MY DESTINY...
