Im new to all this so if everyone will bear with me im gonna make a go of this.Im 39 married.I havr 3 teenage children from my first.I didnt know where they were for years.i tried everything to find them and one day i tried myspace.com and a short time later 1 by 1 I found them.there mother wasnt happy about it.but me and the kids are and so is my wife.She's awsome Shes not just my wife but after 14 years shes still my best friend.I know that sounds corny but its trueI meet her the same day I broke my neck.I didnt know it was broke because the hospital I went to said it was a sprain(no ins) so there was no need for x-rays.We saw each other a coupleof days in arow and she knew something was'nt right so she took meto the hospital were we live now and they did do x-rays and yes my neck was broke.I was real lucky to have meet her or id be dead or in a wheelchair now had she not brought me to the hospital again.I qiut drinking the day I meet her because I never wanted her to see that side of me.I was in the maintainnce buss. till I got hurt a while back now Im limited to what I can do. My left shoulder is shot.but I deliver newspapers at night and do pretty good considering its papers lots of papers to very rich People in N.W.Conn.Im big time into fishing Trout then bass its a little tough sometimes when my shoulder is really hurting but i can block it out when the bite is on.My wife and I own a nice little 2 family home in Torrington Ct.From the front youd never know its a 2 family.I have 2cats and a dog. they choose me i think.Im now an addict of this internet thing.I didnt plan on it I just wanted to find my kids and it hooked me.I went and bought a new Deel dimension 3000 and a new scanner that I have to figure out how to use thats why theres no real pictures up yet but there will be.My kids I am blessed there they are all smart and good looking like me lol.My oldest Mary 18 is still in school.She dropped out but got smart and went back and now shell graduate.kool.My son MIke (michael) just graduated from the milatary acadamy in Anchorag,Ak. At certifed in computers an certified in cpr and first aid as well.He had it rough to but he turned it around as well and is making somthing of himself.Then theres my baby Jayme shes had it the roughest but shes trying real hard.She wont qiut shes in aprogram to help her get her act toghether and she went back to school.Im so very proud of all 3 of my kids.I lost my mother last Oct.(god bless her)and I really belive she helped me find my kids.The last time I talked to them before I found them was when I told thier mother I was engaged.They were told all kinds of crap but they now know the truth and I didnt have to tell all the bad things about thier mother that led up to our split.They dont need to know what she was like because shes not like that anymore.Im not saying it was all her fault because heavens knows I was no angel,Was'nt the devil either.She s not happy about he kids talking to me because The man shes with was dad and now here I am risen from the dead.Ill give her credit shes not getting in the way.We dont talk and thats probaly a good thing.I hated her in the worstkind of way.If I didnt leave Alaska when I did I might have killed someone when I was drunk.I started drinking after the split.I dont hate her any more, But I don't think I can ever forgive her for what she did and had done to me.Broken ribs Jaw and other things always setting me up saying she wanted to see me and like an idiot id fall for it.I use to walk about 10 miles each way just to see my kids in the window just to let them know I was there.Herx brother in law and me didnt get along at all So when she stayed there I could'nt see my kids.I tried to stay as long as I could but It just kept getting worse.Shed invite me over one of her boyfriends eould show up and shed say he just showed up and I didnt want her to get in trouble so I would'nt say shes lying she invited me.I was so dumb to think we could work it out.What sent me over the edge was when I was promised dinner with my kids. I just got out of the hospital form the ribs and stuff and acouple of days later her x brother in law and her boyfreind jumped me and threw me into the end of a couch so hard I broke the end right off of it .The days later was the dinner and the brother in law showed up by himself this time and figured I could barely move so Id be easy pickens.Well he thougt wrong.He was telling me That I wasnt goona have dinner with my kids and I came unclued.I grabbed the 2 biggest knives and made it clear I was hveing the dinner and he wasnt gonna stop me.Alone he wasnt _hit.He left I had dinner and relized it was only gonna get worse.So I left Alaska and came back to Ct.Ive been in hell since,except for my wife.I drank for 2years from bed to bed everyday to kill the pain but it didnt work. My kids were everything to me and leaving was well i cant put it into words but it killed me slowly from the inside out.I hated everything and everyone.I was'nt even close to my family here.They were realy scared for me and what I might do.Id walk through areas where whites dont go in the daytime never mind night at 2am hoping something something would happen to me.well one night it did. Iwas walking a lady home from the bar when 2 guys stopped and said give us your$ and you beer.I was a drunk I wasnt given up the beer lol.I told the girl to run and I fought with them I didnt know what theyd do to her so I fought like I never did before.All that hate paid off.after a few mins one dropped kicked me in the back when i was facing down hill and snapped my neck the pain was intense like nothing I had felt before. I was really pissed now and it showed 1 went back to the car and grabed a gun.I was yelling at him to shoot me I really wanted him to.but he didnt have the guts.Someone must have called the cops probaly the girl because they heard the sirens and left empty handed.They hit 8 other people that night but hey were caughta couple of days later and were sent to jailfor a very very long time.not because me or the other 7 but because the 8th was an asst. dist att.for the state.Im sure that there wearing a strapless and heels by now thier still in there that much I know.then I met my wife turned over a new leaf.Now that Ive found my kids life is great I enjoy life again I did with my wife as well but its complete now. Well thats me in a nutshell.Sorry to bore you but i thought you should know who you might become friends with.Im into politics rockand country music.Im some what spritual.I belive in other words I found my kids so my belief is much stronger than it was.Well I hope I can still make friends here.Take care MIKE body { background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255); background-image: url(http://i74.photobucket.com/albums/i260/JADEDPRIMADONNA/Inferno.jpg); background-position: center center; background-repeat: no-repeat; background-attachment: fixed; } table, tr, td { background-color: transparent; border: 0px; } table table { border: 0px; } table table table table{ border:0px; } table table table { border-width: 2; border-color: rgb(102, 102, 255); border-style: dashed; background-color: transparent; } table table table td { background-color: transparent; filter:alpha(100); -moz-opacity:1; opacity:1; -khtml-opacity:1; } table table table table td { filter:none; } Layout Created at Mspremade.com body, div, span, td, p, .orangetext15, .whitetext12, .lightbluetext8, strong, b, u, .redtext, .redbtext, .btext, .text, .nametext, .blacktext10, .blacktext12 { font-family: Verdana; font-size: 12; color: rgb(255, 0, 249); font-weight: normal; font-style: normal; text-decoration: none; } .nametext { font-family: Arial; font-size: 12; color: rgb(0,0,0); font-weight: bold; font-style: normal; text-decoration: none; } .whitetext12, .orangetext15 { font-family: Arial; font-size: 12; color: rgb(255, 153, 204); font-weight: bold; font-style: normal; text-decoration: none; } a.navbar:link, a.navbar:active, a.navbar:visited, a.navbar:hover, a.man:link, a.man:active, a.man:visited, a.man:hover, a, a:link, a:active, a:visited, a:hover, a.navbar:link, a.navbar:active, a.navbar:visited, a.navbar:hover, a.text:link, a.text:active, a.text:visited, a.text:hover, a.searchlinksmall:link, a.searchlinksmall:active, a.searchlinksmall:visited, a.searchlinksmall:hover, a.redlink:link, a.redlink:active, a.redlink:visited, a.redlink:hover { color: rgb(131, 255, 153); font-weight: bold; font-style: normal; text-decoration: none; } a.navbar:hover, a.man:hover, a:hover { color: rgb(255, 0, 255); font-weight: bold; font-style: normal; text-decoration: underline; } .badge { junk; left: 1px; top: 1px; } .Layout (made by: dragon1967; url: http://www.skem9.com/~3716) .sk {; top:0px; right:0px; 9;}Layout made by dragon1967