TRISH's blog: "Trish's Thoughts"

Why is life so uncertain so unclear. Nothing ever cut and dry, always areas of grey. Sometimes it seems no one cares if I fade away. Shades of grey in this life looking out my window as my life floats by on a cloud. Tears flowing down my face like rain on a rainy day. Uncertain of what comes what may. Dont walk behind me I will not lead Dont walk in front of me I will not follow Just walk beside me and hold my hand Lets take this as far as we can. Shades of grey comming through today needing you to hold my hand to let me know you understand. Blending in with the crowd, voices echo all around. Dreaming of stars in the sky. Shades of grey bluring my eyes.

Shattered dreams with thought of you, Shattered because we are through Shattered just lost and confused. Driving down the fast lane of life spedometer pushing 105. Every things just a blur.Nothing but thoughts of you occur. Empty faces, empty smiles. Lost in you all the while. Know I'm shattered with thoughts of you, Shattered because we are through Shattered lost and confused. The pain is healing all the while I met someone new and know I smile. Dreams do come true. I was shattered because of you Shattered because we were through Shattered no longer true. I was shattered when I though of you. My shattered dreams are all through. Torn down and built back up standing tall standing tuff. Burning fridges one at a time running wild and flying high. On top of the world and I'm no longer Shattered those days are through. Shattered I'm so over you. Shattered It just ain't true. Ill spend no more time being shattered over you.

Little things you do. Funny things you say. Make me like you more with the passing of each day. The feeling That I get, when I see you come online., brings a smile to my face and all my troubles far behind. And on the days I don't see you which are far and few between makes me very sad and blue my eyes with out a gleem. So I sit and wonder as I start at my screen are you a fairy tale or even make believe. Much to my astoundment and glimmer in my eye , you are exactly what I'm looking for, know how do I make you my guy?

God may have created man before woman, but there is always a rough draft before the masterpiece .

WOMAN'S PERFECT BREAKFAST She's sitting at the table with her gourmet coffee. Her son is on the cover of the Wheaties box. Her daughter is on the cover of Business Week. Her boyfriend is on the cover of Playgirl. And her husband is on the back of the milk carton.

Lying in a sleeping bag, above some sticky grass, you count the shinning stars as endless minutes pass. They form alot of pictures, a boat,a horse, some fish, waiting for a star to fall wondering what youll wish. Would you wish for something nice like love or even more? Or would you wish for something mean like Death or hate or war? Think hard before you make a wish and its consequences too. You never know till its to late your wish just may come true.

Do you ever close your eyes and wish real hard, that the one you want to be with will be there when you open your eyes? Do you ever close your eyes and wish that you could turn back time to experience that one moment you never want to forget? Do you ever close your eyes and smile because you know you feel the love of that one special person if only for a minute? Do you close your eyes and fear when you open them noone will be there waiting to love you? I Do

The Painter I Wish To Be... If I were a painter, I paint a beautiful picture 4 all 2 see, If that was the only way 4 you 2 be with me. We be there 2gether just like we use 2 be.... underneath the swirling sky 4 all 2 see, an I'm dreaming of a place were I can see your smiling face and I think my brush would take me there, but If only I was a painter, and could paint a beautiful memory I climb into the swirling sky 2 be with thee.... Hoping you climb outside the swirling blue sky 2 be with me 2 ........ This was written for me by a good friend a long time ago...

~THIS IS SO TRUE~ *Giggles* 11 signs that your crazy for someone ELEVEN: You laugh at they're stupid jokes TEN: You feel shy whenever they're around. NINE: You smile when you hear their voice. EIGHT: When you look at them, you can't see the other people around you, you just see him/her. SIX: They're all you think about. FIVE: You realize you're always smiling when you're looking at them. FOUR: You would do anything for them, just to see them. THREE: While reading this, there was one person on your mind this whole time. TWO: You were so busy thinking about that person, you didnt notice number seven was missing ONE: You just scrolled up to check & are now silently laughing at yourself.

Dear me, I am writing this letter, to try to tell myself I deserve better. Dear me, How much more heartbreak can I take will this be a mistake, or a chance I take Dear me, Of all the things Ive done, I try to tell myself he is the one. Dear me, Its the moment in time, I have to step up and fight to make him mine. Dear me , Its a chance I take, and its such a high steak, what if my heartbreaks. Dear me, What have I done to make me think, I could be the one. Dear me, I have to tell him know just how I feel, but I am not sure how. Dear me, You know you want him, Dear me, You know you miss him. Dear me, You know you need him. Dear me, You know you have to tell him right know.. Dear me.....