This is one of those days that you never know how it's gonna turn out. one moment i'm sad and the next i'm happy. the rollercoaster is never ending. I just wish that the rollercoaster would end sometimes. btw.. my grandson is safe. he is with someone else today and not with me. so i don't worry about him. I am not suicidal i'm just feeling down. I go see my counselor tommorow and will talk about today with them so don't panic...to me Suicide is a chicken shit way out of dealing with your problems. if you can't handle what is wrong then you need to talk to someone and get help there is help out there ... you just have to open up about it. no matter how bad you think it is. you know what.. this has helped me... I hope it helps someone else.