I helped the plan develop
I agreed to things I knew I didn’t want
Just so I could stay a part of your life
I could magically heal you-
Take your pain away.
Is that why you need me now?
I need a release from this reality I have chosen-
Someone to take MY pain away
But still I ignore it all so you can be a better you
And me?
Well I am lonely now (ha!)
I fill my time with stranger things
Everyone is a stranger to me now
I need a brand new friend who doesn’t bother me
I’m facing my addictions one by one
I have headaches every night
And I can’t get out of bed in the day.
I am seeking change, hopefully in the right places
But my communications are poor
And I’d rather be smoking,
Simply loving,
Living mi vida loca.
I am too strong to cry
Too stubborn to let go
Forced to change
Take over this situation
Mend my plans
Cure the evil of humanity
And kill myself in the process
But I live in the moment
And am just talking to myself
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I wrote this because I had to. I could never be more than vague over the internet. I didn't write it for one specific person, but rather for several.
