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What are you waiting for?
Tell me what I did to make you treat me so cheaply,
What did I do to make you so angry and make you beat me,
You could see I was broken up inside and you just threw me around,
You left me lying dazed upon the ground.
I did not dare to meet your eyes but prayed you would see what you had done,
You picked me up and told me "we’d just have some fun".
A lump lodged uneasily in my throat, my eyes glistening with tears,
My tiny body exhausted, yet knowing the worst was near.
I wanted to scream and fight you and run for the door.
You broke me ..you wore me down.. but still wanted more,
incapable of movement,frozen to the core.
Bit by bit ripping my dignity,
You left me on the bed shaking and broken.
I prayed someone would come, please let someone waken,
I would lay and go to a place where when I cried for help someone would come,
And where people didn't hurt people who love them "just for fun".
I’d talk to my friends who’d come and rescue me from the pain,
Who’d put their arm around me and take me to places where I could be a child again
In my dreams they would hold me when I cried,
They would be there to take me to a place where the angels sang lullabies ,
They’d take me to a place little girls didn’t have to feel fear,
Where I would never have to cry or never shed a tear,
I was sad because I could never stay,
They promised I’d be with them there some day,
My friends have always been apart of me and always will,
They gave me hope that I could climb this painful everlasting hill,
My friends were my imagination... I know that now,
And how they helped me survive I don’t know how.
You killed my spirit,you damaged my soul,
My foundations, my very childhood...you trampled on and stole.
I wanted to mean something, wanted to have self-worth
I wanted a loving role model not this painful hurt.
Every night I close my eyes I still see your evil face
Pretending I'm invisible hoping you won't see....
That surviving all this is just an endless journey for me.
My poem...... my life! I hope that this gives a message to anyone that can relate and just know that your alone!
