misssherbear's blog: "tired"

Well let me  start by saying I am leagelly blind. Was since birth. Don't waste your time or mine by feeling sorry for me. I was put in special edd from the get go. wich back then in Ca. was their way of getting you out of the way for the kids who had a chance. So forgive my  had spelling, grammer and  what not. I do  just fine in my  life. I don't need some one to take care of me I do  just fine  on my own . I can take care of my self and others just fine. Yes there is  a few things  I can't do,but a lot I can and some things i don't even  know about yet. I am always willing to try.

  For those of you who judge me  on my eyesight and don't give me a chance ,you are only hurtign yourself not me. You are loosing out on knowing  some one wounderful. I will be fine with out  a closed minded fool for a friend.

  I am single  and not looking for  Mr. right. I don't need a dad for my kids they have one. I don't know if I will ever want  a relationship again. I have a long ways to go befor I even think about that. I have to learn to trust again and I really need to learn when to walk away. For now I just want to meet  lots of ppl and make  friends. Am I lonely ? Hell yeah, but at least  I don't have some one cheating on me and making me feel like third best.

 I am a really great pearson. I am fun f,funny giving and honest. Some times to honest. I am  not as nice as I once was thanx to  a few ppl that.  I will still give you my shirt off my back  but I have to know you are worth it and you really need it.

So that is about it I am what I am . Like it or not. I lvoe who I am for the most part and that is all that matters.

I am not looking for a man for more then sex at this time in my life. I spent 15 years with a guy who  put everyone first and made me feel worthless. I did all I could do to make him happy. nothing I did worked. he told me tp move out after I outed his lover for being a cheating whore. she blamed him and broke up with him. oops my bad. Now i just want  a man just to make me feel good for the night. I am being a bit picky. I never had any man i was reallu atracted to befor and am hoping to change that soon. I have ben free from her for a year and have not found anyone iam atrcted to who is artacted to me. Not giving up. I like mostly the long hair bad oy types It really does depend  thogh. well wish me luck.

I have ben living on my own for the first time ever since feb of 09. befor that I was with my kidses dad for 15 years.  I am  doing my best to move on. it is kinda hard to move on  if no one wants to date you. My ex  wants to date one of my new friends. he just bought her a car. I was asking him to help me  get one and  he could not. I am a little hurt that he could do it for her and not me and the kids. Now the lady he likes is nice her kids are at my house all the time. Now that her electic is off she is here all the time too. All the time. I don't hate them  but I wish they would go away for  a few days what what can I do I can't send them away with no elecric at there house. My sister thinks I am joulise. I just think I am tired I have 3 of my own kids and I have had my grandson for 2 weeks now. I just want a brake from  them. I feel so  mean for wanting them gone for  a wile.