listening to that song now...
wishing I could just brave a jump off a very tall building and go splat!
seriously I am not inclined to do any such thing. :( I am extremely sad and stuck in the ever growing mist of sadness that holds me safely in its grip. I dont give a fuck about anything or anyone especially myself. I just wish to disappear and never feel anything again.
I miss them so much. So much more than I can express ever with useless meaningless words. I want to hold them close to me. Why am I still here? Today is a terrible day and the sun is out the weather is miserably warm and somewhere the birds are mking noise in the shade. I am going back to bed where my miserary is content with my company.