TONTO's blog: "thoughts"

What do you think a friend is..A true friend...Contrary to what you may define it as..A friend is 2 souls in 1 body..So ask yourself..who are your true friends...

We had our share of busy times, weve had our share of quiet. Weve had our share of working hard, and times that were a riot. Weve had our share of differences, and sure, weve had a spat. Weve had our share of making up...And man..We're good at that. Weve shared the good, Weve shared the great. Weve shared a tear or two..And I woukdnt trade a moment of the times Ive shared with you. You are my light for my dark days, You are my guide thru an unknown way. Youre the drink of happiness that quenches my thirst for joy. You are the first and last thought of everyday. The love and care you show me is unlike any feeling on this earth, There is nothing I can do or say to show you exactly what you are worth. Tho the sun may go down, and the world gets dark...You light up my life. The first time I saw you..I knew for sure that there was a God and he was smiling down on me..To have such a perfect person to come into my life..There are not enough words to express exactly what I feel...Though I will spend my life trying. I love you.

Well I dont know where to start..Life started getting great for me a few months back..I was so happy with my life...Then it started going downhill slowly..Then just all of a sudden just dropped...Now here I am..Things finally started looking back up for me..Things were getting good for me again..Then here comes God slamming me on my face again...When am I supposed to be able to just enjoy being happy for more than just a few weeks..Why cant I have a chance to live a happy life??I hate it..I try to do right..I try to do good..And nothing comes of it..I dont want to be forced to leave this joy I feel behind because someone doesn't like me..It is not right at all!!!

Looking in your eyes, seeing deep within, a life of joy, a life of love. Seeing you in my arms, feeling your body so tight against mine. Our bodies fitting together, like a puzzle god created. Feeling a sens of security, a sense of comfort. Feeling your heartbeat with mine, creating a rythm my soul dances to. What is this feeling, this overwhelming sense in my body, other than the sense of love. The feeling of being loved. In your arms, I feel free. Free of the world of sorrow, free of a life of pain, free of the sadness of being without you. In your presence, I feel weak, I feel frozen. I want nothing more, than to stande there, and cherish the angel God has sent me. A perfect being, created by his hands, sent to me, to show me there is hope. A heart as big as the universe, as kind as the breeze to the trees. Could this be fake, could it be a dream, or could it be heaven, heaven on earth in my life. Whatever it is, I welcome it. I open my arms wide and accept it, accept you.

This is a question for all females..When you tell someone that you want space...You don't know how to say it is over yet....Right?? When you say you don't have time for a boyfriend..Yet you have time to go out to concerts with friends, go out of town to hangout with friends...You just don't want to say you found somebody else right??Why are stupid excuses like that used..We know it is bull..Don't get me wrong. I know guys use them too..And that is the stupid ones..All those things being said to us does...Is hurt us more than yall just saying it is over...So to save a lil heartache for the person you wanna end it with...Just tell them.

Why must everyone look at what I have done...Why can't they look at how far I have advanced my life since then??Yes..People say actions speak louder than words..I understand..But if you wanna throw that in my face then what about my actions since then..What about a drug addict...On pills..powder...wet..weed...Just wuitting..Never to touch it again? What about someone taking control of a home and taking care of it? What about getting a respectable job??Do all those actions mean nothing? If they don't then something is terribly wrong with this world.

The sound of Raindrops pounding on my window..Ringing thru my head like drums of the soldier going to war..Thinking only about what I could be losing as I go on...The sound gets louder...Drowning out the sounds of my heart trying to beat without you...I try to block it out..But I soon realize it is the sound of your love leaving my life..I try to drown it out..I try to forget it..But it just gets louder...As I reach for the cold answer...I hear your voice...So soft..So reassuring..Telling me goodbye..As feel the cold metal of the handle in my palm I see your eyes..Leaving me.......