KingMike666's blog: "Thoughts"

This is me, Take or leave it’s all the same, Still struggling with my demons, Don’t get to close they will attach to you I’m poison, Infecting everyone that get close to me, I’m better off alone, Don’t waste your time trying to save me I’m scum, Just a lowlife wondering alone, Causing nothing but pain, Don’t get too close, Your better off going away I’m a pice of shit, Taking advantage of the way you make me feel, It’s good to know the truth, But fuck I’m tired of living a lie I hate myself, What’s there to love? When all I see is a monster, Without reason and chaos, Caused my selfishness Don’t tell me otherwise

If you could read the book of my life would you buy it or be ashamed you opened it? If you could look in side my soul and see how ugly it is would you fix or would you see it as a waste of time? If you could rip open my heart and see all the scars would you mend it or just let it sit? Would you examine my memories to better understand me with tears in your eyes or would you laugh at all my mistakes and pains? Would you reject me if you knew all my secrets? Funny, how I think being judged would be easier to live with. Would you love me, if you knew I was only using you? Your name would be carved into my skin and your memory etched into soul to last throughout the sands of time. Ease my pains, like using your words of anger and pain to stitch up my wounds. So I could hold on to you forever. Look into my eyes and you’ll see a broken man, living dead tissue, used and dried up, filled with regret and despair, sinned with guilt, but a smile knowing it’ll end soon. Any questions?

I’m reaching out my hand in the darkness, Hoping someone would pull me out, I can’t escape myself from these thoughts, My inner demons are trying to make my hell feel like home Crawling on broken glass, Fighting my way through fire, Trying to find a little hope, In a soul that has lost its value Hello why are you looking away, Why can’t you see a little hope that’s left in me? Did you know you could’ve been the one to restore my faith? In a world where I only see ugliness Hello mother and father, I fought as best as I could, Reveal my wounds to the world, Let them see what hatred and ignorant can do, Display them for all to see