Browneyes AKA ReDnEkGrL's blog: "thoughts..."

I sit alone in a state of mind that wishes to go back about a year...
To go back and change so much...
It is a thing that cant be ever truly undone...
To avoid leaving a life that was so good to me...
Throwing it all away like none of it really mattered...
I miss being able to see my sister and talk to her...
I regret the fighting we did between the two of us...
I looked for a way to run and I found it...
Packing my stuff, I ran to live in another world...
Thinking it was for the best, I just took off not looking back...
I ran into the arms of a girl that I thought was my happiness...
Sitting within her grasp I blocked out all my troubles...
About a month later, I returned back home...
I had come to see my sister, and say Goodbye I Love You...
The hardest part was walking in the shadows in the time of the passing...
I helped lay her down for her final rest with tears falling down my face...
Once returned home, I worried about losing the one person that made me happy...
I had nightmares about us splitting due to a reason I knew on the inside...
I feared she honestly didnt love me like she said, which was the truth...
Its okay now though cause I guess she was like an angel sent to help me...
I lived off of anger for so long, when we got together, I was scared...
She saved me from me, but I realized no matter what now Im not me...
I lost everything in my life within two months...
I know my sister is safe so it kind of makes me feel better...
After everything the last year has done to me, I think its prepared me for this...
I'm with a beautiful 27 yr old, and I wouldn't be who I am now without my past...
I lay awake watching her peacefully sleep, knowing how much she means to me...
Sandy you make me so happy....
I want to end this by saying I honestly don't know what to say...

Chy-thanks for everything-may your life treat you well...

Sandy-I cant wait to see what the future holds in store for us...

Britt-My Sister-I Love You so much... Cant wait to come see you in the land of God...

Written By: Zach A.K.A Comatosed