southern comfort's blog: "thoughts"

it has been a while since ive been here and for good reason about 2-3 weeks ago my son was arrested here in mb for tresspassing,well i sent him to ny to visit his mom , he wasnt there 2 weeks and he got roughed up by the nys troopers and according to witness he did not get his miranda rights read to him , so ive been busy working andpuling hair and favors to get this kid home safely...what a nightmare this has been! so if any of you read this, i am soory i havent forgotten any of you , but its been craxy for me here, wishing you all a safe and happy easter....as always..rebel

today we lost a fellow firefighter, a man who was family yet endured many a fire, he would tell you to your face if he liked you or not and after a quick and swift battle with a virus, he lost his life..words cannot describe the loss i am feeling tonight, my prayers and thoughts go to the family, wishing we could be there in ny to share our grief with friends and family...but we cant, we have our thoughts and memorys, of uncle jim,...rest my friend..your fight is done, let the fellow firefighters carry you home...and we'll carry on your battle......fighting the demon that takes familys homes everyday....rest uncle jim....

i just sat here and i looked at all the true friends i have, what do i mean, well you see everybody say rate me, add me, and rate my pics, ill be dammned i have over 90 friends and how many of them took the time to rate my pics, i can count on one hand how many and id gladly rate my friends as well, but damnit people dont expect me to rate your pics after the first time, if you cant return the favor...im soory if i sound rash but how many of you think the same way i do? to those who are my true friends let me know when you have a update and i'll def show you the love..by rating and giving you the tens you deserve,

today i learned that a very close and special friend of mine passed on...she was 61, but her smile shone through like a beacon on a dark and cold nite, she was greek and firey like one, yet if you were her friend she'd stick by you thick and thin...you see my friend had cancer an agressive type, and when i spoke to her about a month ago, she said she felt great and felt that she had it beat...i leanred today she lost that battle...so close to christmas..and i thought of my own mortality...i cried like a new born babe, for over 2 hours...and i then thought of what my dad onece said...when christmas got so commercialized...dad said ..you know what..people have forgotten what christmas means, its not the gifts that people give, its not about religion, its about family...when everybody gets toghter and shares a meal..and love..im soory if the words blur this is diffcult to write...but as i sit here and know my family is over 800 miles away and i look at the charlie brown christmas tree not only 20 feet away...i give thanks for having friends here to help me through the christmas day, there will be no gifts under the tree. you ask why decorate a tree then? its tradition...and with that i'll close with a moment of silence for the dear friend that passed on..and to my dad who always shared a story at christmas time, with me and a glass of applejack, a tradition i carry on yet today...so to all of you who read my blog, heres to your familys and loved ones on this christmas day...gods bless you all

today i got a call from the dr regarding my scare about cancer...for the past few months ive been hemming and hawing on the fact that i may have it, and the worst kind for a man...yes folks the oleeeee testy cancer...and i say this for any man if you find your testey enlarged dont play around get a checkup..ladies if your giving your man some lovin...check it out for him...you may save his life.....well right now till the 22nd of december the dr has found something...and he's not committing himself to a def answear on it till he gets more tests back..right now they have me on massive antibotics at 1000.mg a day for the next two weeks, and a sonogram on the 22nd as well...now i dont want anybody crying or boohooing over this, god that sounds cruel dosen't it/...im soory i really am...if you are truly my friend..then smile..give me a hurahhhah and be there when i need to vent or cry depending on the cirmustances...if you dont want to do either hey thats cool too, just knowing that youre still my friend and not treating me like a leper is the best thing...they say moral support is the best thing for somebody...i found out a good friend of mine has the same thing...sucks huh...but hey we are still alive and i have a chance that it wont be it...but as i said i promised to update my blog, and as always i keep my promise...so thank you for being a true friend and wish me luck...by the way...locks of love will be getting the donation i promised real soon...the hairs coming off! smiles

yeaterday as i sat and thought about my life 2 songs played at the shop, the one i posted and the other from things i did in ny...wanted dead or alive i think fits me well right now...i can pick out every verse of the song and somehow it fits in the past and present...i have another dr appointment this sat and then again monday, they will discuss the probability of the problem and access it, accordingly...neverous? yer damn right i am...today is the worst ive felt in over ayear, the pain in my back dosent allow me to sit for long perioed of time and the motrim dosent help either...thank the gods for good a good dr here who's on my rearend to get the tests finished...i can say this, whatever happens in the next week, i will deal with the news accordingly, and for those who know what im talking about i will share it with you as well...and thank you to Mr. Jon Bon Jovi...your songs give me the strength to face this problem with hope...i remember one line from a movie that Mr.Jon sang for...and the line went like this.....Billy you are not a god....billys reply was....why dont you pull the trigger and find out...well monday i guess i pull the trigger and find out...smiles...later

well another year and its the time i sit and think of things, not that my mind isnt running in one thousand directions at once, from writing a new novel, to paying bills, making money, starting a new business, thinking of friends, how they are doing, trying to catch up and keep in touch, you ask when does your mind slow down...hardly ever i awake in the middle of the nite and write things that come to mind...back to thanksgiving, this will be my 2 nd holiday here, and my family is back in ny...this year when i sit at the table and give thanks...( only time i do this)..i know heathen...lol..oh well...this year i think back on whom we lost and who wont be sharing a table with us this year at our table...our friends, our loved ones..but as a friend once told me...when i asked why there was an empty plate set at the dinner table...i was told so that we never forget whom shared the dinner with us...to all my new friends here, and you know who you are, the ones whove shared my thoughts and pain and youres as well...this year i will set a plate for somebody you lost and share in our dinner as well...you ask why would you do that...youre my friend, and youre family is our family ,and on that note, i wish you all the very best of the holiday season...and wont you set a place for someone, at your table...? I"ll be thinking of each of you when i carve the bird and bring a toast to the dinner...you'll all be here sharing dinner with me..and i hope you;ll be sharing dinner with loved ones as well.. may the great spirit bless your home may mother earth share her beautiful bounty.. may your childerns laughter fill your home with love and joy.... but not let us forget,the loved ones...missing from our home... russell little wolf.....

hummnn def feeling better...i had a thought, ive checked out a lot of profiles in the time being here, and i know of one person, who like myself, chooses her songs to describe how she feels or the song to express herself..i am wondering does anybody esle feel the same or do u choose a song just cause it sounds good? maybe i should put this to the post bulletin area? yeah sounds good..lets see what the concesus says.

wow, i wanna say thank you to eveybody who sent me get well wishes...it made my nite, even though i didnt get to thank everyone of you yet i will...im feeling better now, i guess going to work in the pouring down rain does something to your system, although im not out of the woods yet, im fighting with every ounce of strength, i got tea, and my feet in boiling water..only kidding about feet...im soory i didnt get to say thanks last nite, but im back, feeling a little better, enough to send some serious love to eveybody who took time out of thier busy life to send me well wishes...thank you..and im here for you as well...hugs,,and i wont give kisses yet...cough cough..no sense of making you all sick either...smiles...

hey guys, home sick with flu? not sure, will catch up with every body hopefully tommmroe nite...if im feeling better...wishing u a grat nite