CanadianBratt's blog: "2023-10-13"

I have been debating for awhile if I was going to post anything.

Alot of friends keep asking me if I am ok because I haven't been doing what I would normally do on here.

Awhile ago I had tested postive cancer. Me thinking it's a false postive kept putting off the test.

I finally went in and they ended up cutting part of my liver which I wasn't even in for that/ After that experience I  refused again to get the right procedure. Still thinking its a false postive and that I am fine.

I had a procedure done plus a cat scan and tons of blood work, dye and nuclar medicine shot through me.

(It had made me wore out where I couldn't do a lot on here.)

A few weeks ago it showed cancer,  I was told it's a  large mass (Im not going to say where right now till I get more faxs , how large , if it did spread, what stage ect.) My doctor has more details which will be discuss with me on the 16th (Thursday).

Right now I am on 12 different meds and I get a needle every friday after they take more blood from me. (expermental needle)

Im not looking for sympathy or anything like that. I went through this with my parents,  daughter and other family members, so I do have an idea of what I can expect. Different treatments has been discuss a bit of what I could expect, but nothing is 100% yet (on treatments)

I did tell Dr. Majors I don't know if I even want treatment after seeing what most of my family went through.

I would also like to thank all my family that kept me in for the likefest. I had plan on running stuff but after my needle I slept in between being sick all weekend. (only one got rid of me) I appreciate you guys.

I apologize for not letting anyone know except for one person on here. I just wasn't ready , It has only been the last few days that I even told anyone in my family( real life). Ignoring it won't make it go away, which I tried.

I am still trying to learn how to deal with this and figure everything out in my head, 

I won't be answering any comments sorry.

With that being said I will make salutes if anyone wants one before I have to take some time off from here for awhile. If you want one just tell me in a comment and on good days I will work on them. Theres is a few I do owe some too, will get those done soon..

2024/05/22

Some of my meds been stopped (my choice told the doctor what they are doing to me so he agreed)

Felt really good last Wednesday when I left my cancer doctors office.

On The 27th (Monday) I will be going in for day surgery. I will be getting two procedures done, than from there, they will decide if i need to be cut open . I already signed all the papers to do what he feels best for now. Im going to have a tube down my throat to my stomache, than  a colonoscopy . I will be knocked out for both.

It will take 3 weeks to get results depending on what he cute out during these procedures.

He did tell me if he calls me in his office the same afternoon to be concerned. If he doesn't try to relax till we get the results back.

Than the next day I had to see Doctor Major again,  apparently now my blood is too thick and it can cause a stroke. 50 is dangerous  i was told I am at 48. Nothing can be done for this untill after my procedures on the 27th because I could bleed out. (WTF).

(unless I pay another $150.00 for blood work) I said no more money this is getting crazy already what it's costing. No our free health care has gone down the hill thanks to Trudeu !!!!!!!!!

Shelia (Squeebles on here) has been coming to all my treatments and appointments with me (she loves driving my car lol) she was even floored when the doctor said that.

She did want to start me on long lasting insulin, (guess my sugar level are 18 now) I said no (I asked her if she could give me a few months to get that under control on my own, my eatings off, haven't been going for daily walks nothing, just sleep alot so of course my sugars are going to be off) (Besides I had enough needles for awhile, I feel like a pin cushion)

I still won't be on a lot or running stuff, I just come on and try to do wc and catch up some. If Im not feeling sick than Im tired and laying down, For now Fubar just has to take a back seat.  This site does help me not have to think of stuff for the bit i am on.

Love you guys and thank you for all the love and support~~