So I've spent a lot of time thinking lately. I'm going through a lot of changes, and they have made me look back on my life so far. Here's what I've discovered:
I have issues... well I knew that, but I found out that they are a little deeper than I thought.
I don't want a relationship. When you have a million failed relationships, you start to wonder why. Here's what I've come up with. My own little epiphany if you will... I don't want a relationship. I keep finding myself in situations where I am always the one hurt. I keep picking the guys who subconsciously, I KNOW it won't work, because, in reality... deep down in the "inner me"... guess what, I don't want a relationship. The poor guys I get involved with who might just have a shot, who I think it maybe could work out with... I self destruct those ones.
So right now, I'm happy to be who I am. I want to date. Not one guy, whoever the hell I want to date. It seems that once you've granted rights into your panties, guys forget that you like to do nice things. And I want that. I'm going to start going out with whoever I want, whenever I want. And if I decide I need to get laid, then I will. But honey, don't think just cuz I let you fuck me you get to keep me... cuz it's not working that way anymore. I can adopt a mans attitude easily... Find em, fuck em, and forget em.